A few days ago, I discussed the word submit and the Bible. Today I want to delve a little into the sexual nature of it. "Submission" is big business in sex. There is a whole lifestyle dedicated to it. I do not know a lot about it because it's not my life. The act of submitting to someone does entice me. IT speaks to a place inside of me that I can readily identify now. I did not know what it was before I was like 28/29. I had no name for it because it was not fed. Now, I have identified it now. I have accepted it. Now, I wan t to discuss it.
When you are a strong woman day in and day out, sometimes all you want is someone else to handle things once in a while. I am spoiled and bossy and have to be in control. This comes with being the oldest child. It's the role I am most familiar with. When it comes to certain aspects in life, I just want to relinquish control. I don't want to make all the decisions. I don't want to be the one who wears the pants. This has a lot to do with my uber traditional morals. I have no shame in writing this. It's a part of who I am. It's kind of a no-brainer that I could be submissive. I'm not into the whole BDSM lifestyle. I have no real taste for it. But, I have no issue with the right man taking total control in the bedroom.
I'm not going to go into full detail of what works for me. But, I just know that it makes perfect sense for me to be this way. My personality is big and bossy. That does not translate into all arenas in my life. I am more than ok with that. Some days, I just want to be the quiet one. I just want to be held in his arms as we block the rest of the wayward world the hell out. That is my idea of euphoria. No, I don't need some one to take care of me. But, I need someone who is able to do this for me. I can't admit this. Can you?