A Scandalous Affair

If you've been following my blog, then you should already know how I feel about "Scandal." I am a proud Gladiator. The show is golden. The acting is superb. The writing immaculate. And the way the scenes unfold on screen always leave me wanting more and more. I am never disappointed. I have watched the most ridiculous conversation week by week spawned from the show. On Twitter and Facebook, people are upset with others who like the Olivia/Fits extramarital affair. These judgy folks have decided that those of us who like the relationship are championing the relationship. As if we aren't intelligent enough to decipher real life and tv. "Oh I can't believe that y'all are so into this relationship. It makes me sick. You guys should be ashamed." Well, excuse the hell out of me for being entertained by a show who's whole premise is to entertain.

Are folks really that dense? Seriously. If you cannot separate what's real from what's fake, you my dear, have a bigger issue. That is a personal problem. I suggest that you work that out within and stop projecting your issues on others. Are people so jaded that they can't differentiate between scripted tv and reality? It's almost as if these people don't understand that I can just simply enjoy the chemistry between Olivia and Fitz. Here's a clue: I can champion this fictitious relationship and be against adultery in real life. What I like to watch, hear or read does not equate my real life. They are all forms of entertainment. That is their only purpose: to entertain me. I watch shows like "Scandal" as a way to get out of my head for a little while. Adultery is wrong in real life. I'm more lenient of it on tv, in books and the like. That doesn't make me a bad person. It does make me a woman who can discern between what's real and what isn't. 

A friend on Facebook posted that "Olivia is going to have women thinking it's cute to sleep with another woman's husband." My response "If a tv character can weld that much power, then said woman has bigger problems." I'm sorry but that's just silly as hell. A scandalous woman is going to be just that because she chooses to be. A Jay-Z song has never prompted me to sell drugs, "50 Shades of Gray" does not make me want to dive into the BDSM lifestyle, nor has "The Wire" made me want to raise a son to be a corner boy. I'm smarter than that. People are who they are. They don't need validation from a fictional tv show. People who feel this way are doing entirely too much in my opinion. I like all of the characters in spite of their actions. I have the right to do so. If that makes me scandalous, I'll be that. Handle ya scandal people!

Attitude of Gratitude

Life is a precious gift from God. In living, I take too much for granted. I get so caught up in my own everyday-ness, nothingness that I forgot how blessed I am. Forget to give thanks all the time. Life has a way of doing that to you. It's easy to get caught up in the materialistic things that life has to offer. So easy. Or to get so involved in the drama/comedy that is my life. So this is me taking just a moment to say "thank you God." I've said repeatedly that I'm not an overly religious woman. But, I am spiritual and I do have a relationship with God. I do think I know a lot, but not everything. I know that my life has a reason, purpose. Even if I haven't totally captured it yet. I know that He knows his plan better than I ever could.

I am always so humbled by the fragility of life. We treat it so cavalier as if it is guaranteed. It is not. We are all here for a short time. It's up to us to make that time count. I've been really reflective over the last few days. That had caused me to be severely emotional when I didn't need to be., hey I am who I am. A woman a week away from her 33rd birthday who is finding her way to her destiny. I do not have any of it figured out. That scares me. Prayer calms me. I have to remember to be thankful in the good times as well as the bad. They all shape me. The holidays always have this affect on me. I'm in my head more than normal during this month. Just thinking. Wondering. Hoping. And, most of all praying. Just trying to display an attitude of gratitude. Hoping that the next year narrows my focus more than ever before. Happy Holidays, Readers!!!

Places I Must Visit: Toronto, Canada

Toronto is gorgeous in pictures. I want to see it for myself. I think the city would be a great tourist spot. I have a thing about zoo's and Toronto is known for theirs. The Skydome is simply a site to see. I want to go there. The city is famous for its Harbourfront. It is known for its art galleries, shops, craft boutique restaurants, theaters and hotels. I would definitely want to stay at a hotel in this area. I would want to go in the winter because I am fascinated by snow. Being from the south, it is something that I am not used to. I would have to visit the Toronto islands as well. I did not know that these existed until I was researching the city. Toronto's "Wonderland" is known for its rides, roller coasters and water park. This would be a great family outing as well. Toronto seems to be a city that has a lot to offer. I want to explore it. That is why this city is on my list.

Teen Angst on TV

Growing up, I always felt different than others. I wasn't necessarily awkward. But I was always acutely aware that I wasn't like everyone else. I was fine with my weirdness. It's who I was. I was the girl you would find inside snuggled up in a chair with a book when it was a gorgeous day outside. I've immersed myself in literature since I was 3. When it came to the shows I watched on tv, I liked shows outside of the norm. It was just my personal taste. I craved dry humor and sarcasm because those were two languages I spoke fluently.

° MTV's "Daria" was my ultimate fave. The main character was exactly me on cartoon form. I loved Daria's sarcastic yet realistic view on life and people. She had the best one liners. She was super sarcastic and very matter of fact. I enjoyed Daria because she was intelligent, funny and real. I loved all the characters on the show but Daria and Jane were my favorites. Oh, and the "Daria" theme song still gives me life. I watched every episode as well as the two movies. This series is on dvd now. I need it in my life.

° "My So-Called Life" was the epitome of teen angst on the screen. Everything about this short lived dramedy was perfect. I identified with Angela so much. It's hard to believe that the show only lasted one season. It introduced me to the gorgeousness that was Jared Leto. His character was an ass but I liked him still. The show touched on so many issues that were outside my relative box. It was great.

° "Boy Meets World" was the comedy angle of teen angst. Cory, Topanga, Shawn, and Angela were extremely deep and emotion teenagers. They were like little adults. I loved Cory & Topanga's relationship. They were my goal in high school. Mr. Feeny was an amazing character. He went from the old grumpy man next door to the excellent teacher to the wisest guy. I watched every episode. (Sidebar:I'm super stoked about the "Boy Meets World" spinoff "Girl Meets World." I will be watching to see how Cory & Topanga are as parents to daughter Riley.)

I can honestly say that these shows influenced me as a teen. Navigating high school and teenage hood can be hard. I am thankful that my Mom equipped me with right tools to make it through. I was never afraid to stand up for my beliefs. I was never a follower. I've been a leader. If I did something stupid, please believe I spearheaded the idea. I stood up in my weirdness and wrapped myself up in it. I was just me. Just Yokenda. I don't think I experienced too much teen angst in real life. I'm thankful for that. What shows did you watch as a teen? Let's discuss.

Around These E-Streets (II)

I am a voracious reader. Whether it is books, magazines or online, I am almost always reading something. I wanted to share so interesting things I ran across this last week or some on the web. Hope you guys enjoy it.

° I really loved these two articles: "25 Ways to Communicate Respect To Your Husband" & "25 Ways to Communicate Respect To Your Wife." Am I a wife? No,` but I am in a committed relationship. Am I super religious? No, but I am deeply spiritual. Both lists are full of common sense advice with Biblical backup. I truly enjoyed reading both. I think they are great guidelines to any one in a relationship.

° I blogged about the lessons I learned from "The Alchemist" here. This article reminds me of one. It is this "When you want something all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it." This is what the law of attraction is all about. This article touches right on that. It also links to Oprah talking about the LOA as well. If you haven't read "The Alchemist," I suggest you do.

° As a music lover and blogger, I am always looking for places that combine the two. I was in luck when I read my girl BK's blog yesterday. She blogged about a situation that a music lover as myself could get into. "To All The Artists I've Loved Before...I Thank You" comes from a place of deep love for music and artists. I loved it because I feel the same. Read and enjoy.

° I am a worrywart. I think it developed once I became an older sibling. I cannot shake it if I tried. Trust me, I have. And, currently still. Any way, this article was all about worrying about the wrong things. It is good. It also led me to this article which is a funny, tongue in cheek way that explains things not to worry about. Both really gave me some insight.

° If you do not know the name Angela B. Murray, you should get familiar. She is the former of Essence magazine, current editor of CocoaFab.com. The website is bright and informative. I love sites that are dedicated soley to women of color. The articles are geared towards my needs, concerns, thoughts and likes. Murray did a wonderful job at Essence and I have no doubt that her website will flourish as well. Check it out.

° If you know me then you know I am an SATC fanatic. So, in the first movie, Jennifer Hudson's character Louise is always getting hot bags from a site called Bag, Borrow or Steal. I literally did not know this was a real site until last week. It's a novel idea. But, I love my bags too much to have to send them back. I get the appeal though.

° I have no real words for this. All I can say is DMX. Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer. Remix. Just watch. Enjoy LOL!

° My favorite singer/performer/entertainer is on her way back. Beyonce' will be everywhere come February 2013. First, she will be headlining the halftime show of the Superbowl om February 6, 2013. A week later, her new documentary will premiere on HBO. You can read about it here.

Ladies Love Lyrics: Nikki Leonti "The Walk"

Imagine my surprise to find a new music jewel via a crap show on VH1. I was channel surfing and stopped on VH1 to answer my phone. As I was talking to my cousin, this song starts playing on tv. I told her to hold on so I could hear it. After about 30 seconds I knew I wanted to hear more. So, to YouTube, I went. There I discovered Nikki Leonti. The song was "The Walk" and I was sold. I haven't listened to anything else by her yet. I am a fan of this particular track. The music pulled my attention away from my conversation. But, the lyrics made me search for this artist. Take a listen and vibe with me.

"Racing away
all out of breath
looking above
asking what could be next
Send me a dove
send me a sign
I prayed for peace
and I prayed for light
and out of the blue
you stopped me in my tracks
I took in the moment
and didn't look back
and stopped running

(chorus)
Then I walked to you
into forever
And I will walk with you
Now and forever
And I will speak love into your life
The hand that I give will hold on
when there's darkened skies
We will walk it through
and this is my promise to you.

Seeing the worse is easy for me
When I see future, your face is all I see
The sun reminds me our day is here
The peace that I feel it tells me I'm ready
And into the blue I will follow the tracks
And now in the moment
we never look back
and stop running

(chorus)

When our bodies grow weak
our love will grow stronger every time
Let us never forget the better
when the worse tries to divide..."

It's December Baby!!!

It's December. My absolute favorite month for a plethora of reasons. My birthday is this month on the 14th. Then there's Christmas which is a huge ordeal for something more than the gifts. And, then it's New Year's Eve. Everything about the month of December is awesome. I love the smell of the holiday season. I am enthralled with the Christmas lights and decorations. It's the time of year when the weather finally gets cooler here. There is Christmas music on the radio all the time and Christmas movies on the tube. I have been a fanatic about this month all of my life. As a kid, I loved it for the Christmas holiday break from school. Also, because this break always followed my birthday. I took it as my gift from the school board.



I thought as a kid that I would get over my love of this month. I'll be 33 in two weeks and it hasn't changed yet. I beginning to believe that it won't ever change. I am more than ok with this. I feel differently about my birthday and Christmas though. They excite me for other reasons. I do not care about gifts as much as I used to. Thoughtful things are always welcomed. But, I no longer worry about the quantity. I focus on quality. It's the thought that matters the most. December just makes me happier than any other month of the year. Yes, I know I'm biased. I am more than ok with that. What's your favorite month and why? Tell me!

Ask Before You Butcher

Names are a wonderful thing. They define who you are. Names can be simple and classic or unique and different. But, they are our introduction to the world. I saw the above tweet on Tumblr. It instantly pissed me off. How dare a woman with the ridiculously common name of Jenny tweet such a thing. It's not my fault that your uneducated tongue cannot pronounce my name. It's not my fault that you Jenny forgot to check your white privilege at the door. I do not care who you are but if you mispronounce my name, I will correct you instantly. If I have to correct you more than once, my tone will change. That's your fault. The responses that followed on Tumblr made me smile.

"I’m tired of people asking me to smooth my name out for them. They want me to bury it in the English so they can understand. I will not accommodate the word for mouth. I will not break my name so your lazy English can sleep its tongue on top. Fix your lips around them. No you can’t give me a stupid nickname so that you can replace this gift of five letters." - Hiwot Adilow (from the above piece)

I do not believe that having my name pronounced correctly is a chore. It is not that huge of an undertaking that I expect a thinking human being to have the dignity and respect to learn and say my name correctly. Am I wrong to believe that I deserve that common courtesy? I do not think so. My name is my name. To mispronounce it more than once is disrespectful. I take it personally. It pisses me off. If you have a simple, common name, you will never endure this. And,lucky you. I was given a moniker that is one of a kind, just like me. I demand, deserve respect. So, do me a favor and get it right. In the words of Destiny's Child, "say my name, say my name" correctly though. It's really not that hard to ask a person to pronounce their name for you. I do it all the time. People ask me all the time. My name always sparks a conversation. Hey, I'm an ice breaker all by myself :) For future reference, those of us with unique, uncommon, difficult names would prefer being asked before you butcher our names. Take this into consideration the next time the situation arises.

"Give your daughters difficult names. Give your daughters names that command the full use of tongue. My name makes you want to tell me the truth. My name doesn’t allow me to trust anyone that cannot pronounce it right." - Warsan Shire

Just Because I Felt Like It: Ode To My 2 Favorite Hip-Hop Love Songs

Hip Hop love songs are an unusual thing. They are either really very good or really awful. My favorite two are Method Man/Mary J. Blige's "You're All I Need" and LL Cool J's "I Need Love." Both are hood love songs that I truly dig. Both of them always make me feel happy. Always. I can remember the first time I heard LL's song. I was in the car with my parents. I was enthralled with it and him. And, my favorite memory associated with Meth and Mary's song has to be on night in the HOB with my girl's. The DJ dropped this song at the end of a reggae set. The entire club went crazy. We were in the middle of the dance floor dancing to this song. It was just surreal. It was one of the best nights in a club of my life. We enjoyed every moment. I do not even remember leaving the club.This was really just because I felt like it. These two songs have been on my mind all day. Wanted to share them with you guys. Listen and vibe with me.

Here We Go Again: Abuse of "Stand Your Ground" Law

This scenario is becoming too familiar. White man. Black teen. One dead. And it happened in Florida again. Here are the basics: a 45 year old White man shot into a car of 3 Black teens 9 times. Essentially killing a 17 year old Black child. The murderer then got into a car, drove back to his hotel and went on about his life. After finally being arrested, his lawyer is claiming that the man is not guilty and is claiming self defense. SELF-DEFENSE?!?! Really?!?! How? Only in Florida. Oh and of course now they are using the stupid "Stand Your Ground" law. This article gives all the information. Please read it. This happened on Black Friday, November 23, 2012.

I am disgusted and outraged. Is it open season on young Black men? This situation reeks of white privilege. For those of you who do not know, white privilege refers to "advantages that white people enjoy in many societies. It sometimes connotes unspoken advantages, which white people may not realize they have." Michael David Dunn (the murderer) pulls up next to a car playing loud music at a convenience store. He decides it is his place to tell them to turn their music down. Words are exchanged between him and the people in the car. It ends, with this coward of a man pulling out his gun and shooting into a car of teens, killing 17 year old Jordan Russell Davis. He showed no remorse by fleeing the scene and leaving the county. He did not care that he took a life that night. He did not care about this kids family. He slept like a baby after taking a life. He did not turn himself in. If not for people on the scene getting his license plate number, he would be a fugitive. Davis' Dad has said that Dunn is a

"coward for shooting at unarmed teens. You know they are 17; you can see it in their faces. Black Friday now has a different meaning for me because it will really be a Black Friday massacre for me."

I love the law. I believe in justice. Dunn should be given life in prison. He took a life. Just like Zimmerman should be in jail for all of his natural life. I do not give a damn about what they will lose. You take a life, you should have to give yours as well. The only time I feel differently is when it is in self defense. Dunn, like Zimmerman, both caused these situations by butting their nose in places where they did not belong. They weren't officers of the law. They were just citizens who felt that they are above the law. They are not. They need to pay dearly for their crimes. Also, the families of Trayvon Martin and Jordan Davis should file civil suits against Zimmerman and Dunn as well as suits against the counties in Florida as well. Justice needs to be served. These two lives were not lost in vain. Also, ?I found it eerily ironic that the picture used for the story of Davis is of him in a hoodie. I have 2 brothers, 4 nephews, a Godson and a host of cousins that I fear for. This is not the world I want for them. Something has to be done. For more info, please read this.

In My Demise...

This topic is a bit morbid. But, it's something that I need to discuss. Death is a guaranteed part of life. More of us can avoid it. We are born with the notion that death will come. I don't spend much time thinking about my demise. But, I had a thought. I hate funerals. Hate them. I've attended way too many funerals in my lifetime. Between 1997-2000, I lost 4 very important people in my life. Those funerals drained me. I try to avoid them at all costs. I've decided that I do not want a funeral. I don't want to be put in a casket and put on display. I don't want people standing over me, looking at me. That is not the image I want to leave with my loved ones. I don't want my body put into the ground.

I would prefer to be cremated. I do not want to be put into an urn and sat on a mantle for all eternity. My ashes can be spread out on the ocean. I want a celebration of my life. A party with all the people who loved me. I want colorful tulips all over the place since they are my favorites. Celebrate me. Let them tell funny stories about me. I want them to laugh, eat and drink in my memory. And, there must be music. Lots of music. A true celebration of my life. That's the way I want to leave this Earth. No tears are allowed. I think this scenario will be best. A space filled with my memory and my larger than life personality is what happiness feels like to me. Funerals are always so hard on people. I don't want to put that on my family. Celebrating the woman that I was and what I've done is the best home-going ceremony in my mind. What do you guys think? Let's discuss.

This is Insane!

The old saying goes that you don't poke a sleeping bear. That was the first thing that came to my mind when I read the Twitter feud between Chris Brown and a virtually unknown to me comedic writer named Jenny Johnson. This post is not about Brown's character or his domestic violence past. I am not hear to discuss all of that. However, I will say that no man should put his hands on no woman. I do not support that at all. Because if a man ever gets the misguided notion to raise his hands to me, it will not end well. I will not stand for that. Ever. Now, that I've gotten that out of the way, let's discuss. Johnson has been poking Brown for years on Twitter. I've read so many tweets that Brown should just brush it off. That as a celeb, he should have tougher skin. I disagree. He is human first and foremost. Someone say awful things to you constantly would get to any one. That is the reality.

What happened next was vile. Brown reacted to her tweets. He was disrespectful and gross and rude. Johnson was rude, ignorant and got the response that she clearly has been pushing for. They are both wrong. She is too old to be bullying a kid. Yes, he is a kid under her. She has to know better. I took a look at her Twitter feed. For a comedic writer, she isn't funny in the least. Not one tweet made me giggle. She seems to be very mean spirited and unhappy in general. Brown knows that all eyes are on him. There are certain folks who are just waiting for him to screw up again. He keeps falling into the trap. He keeps doing exactly what he doesn't need to. He was punished for his crime. His victim has clearly forgiven him. It is not up to the public to persecute him. But, many still do. We, as a people, are wholly too judgmental.

It bothers me to think that if this comedic writer was a Black woman, the mainstream media would not have been so quick to defend her. Jenny Johnson is NOT the victim here. For over 2 years, she bullied Brown, antagonized him. Almost daily, she had something negative to tweet to him. Her anger at him seems misplaced and out of line. She was not his victim. The bottom line is that both Johnson and Brown were wrong. Both were disrespectful. Both should walk away from Twitter. Brown deleted his Twitter. I think Johnson should follow suit. People go to far. Both of them did. It was really horrible to read. I cannot believe that this was an interaction between a guy in his early 20's and a woman who has to be in her late 40's. To quote Rihanna, "we have got to do better."

Inspiration

When I saw this, I read it over and over again. Rules are the boundaries of our lives from the beginning. Rules gives us structure. They define the parameters of everything. As teenagers, we challenge every rule. We want to bend them, test them, break them and forget about them. Rules to teenagers are something to turn one's nose up at. As an adult, we define our own rules for our lives. Sometimes, it can be hard to break free of the rules of our parents, teachers and bosses.

We slowly feel our way around our own rules. We keep those that work in our favor, throw out the ones that suffocate us. But, there are always rules. Whether they are slight or heavy, they exist. I try to live my life by my own rules. Many don't like that or agree. But, my life is my own. I am thankful that I know what works for me. I know how far I am willing to push it, push myself. Rules can be helpful. Society wants me to be many things inside a certain box. I'm inclined to be my own version of myself...way outside of the box. I rule me. End of discussion.

The Art of Storytelling: Oh Baby!

Warning: The following story is sexually explicit. Read at your own risk.

This is the finale in a 10-part series. The rest are available here:

1) "Unexpected Meeting"
2) "All Night Conversation"
3) "Breakfast Buddies"
4) "Past, Present, Future"
5) "About Last Night"
6) "Clarification & Coffee"
7) "9 1/2 Weeks Later"
8) "A House Divided...Or Not"
9) "Head and Heart"

*flashback to a month ago*

Things were progressing greatly. Jakob and Camille were in their own little love bubble. They spent all of their free time together. They had so much fun together. Music and literature were always the topic of discussion. They just clicked. The couple was in bed, watching "What to Expect When Expecting." Well, Camille was watching and Jak was on the web. "Awww, look how cute she looks pregnant. I cannot wait to have kids." Camille turned to look at Jakob. His face was all screwed up. Camille was thoroughly confused. "Baby, what was that look about?" Jak replied matter of factly "Kids aren't my thing. I've never wanted any." Camille's face dropped as did her heart. She was thoroughly confused. "He doesn't want kids. How come I didn't know this before?" she thinks. "Are you serious?" she asks. He says "Yea, I am. I thought you knew?" "No, I did not. You never said a word," she says as she sits up indian-style in the bed. She was so hurt by his words. She was actually speechless. Jak sensed this. He says "Baby, I love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Just you and I. Just us two. Is there anything wrong with that?" Camille digests his words. They are somewhat bitter going down.

"Jak, you know I love you too. It happened so quickly but felt so right. But, I want kids. They are a part of my plan. Always." she says. They are tears falling from her eyes as she was speaking. She was literally in pain. How could it be possible that this wonderful man doesn't want what she wants. She has been dreaming of having his kids for weeks now. "Why is this just coming up now? Why didn't we discuss this before..." her voice trails off. Jakob hates that he is hurting her. But, he refuses to bring a child into this world. His father was a horrible parent. He was a drug addict and he was bi-polar. Jakob was deathly afraid of passing those genes down to a kid. He decided long ago that children weren't an option. "Cami, I would be a terrible father. I don't want to do that to my own child." Nothing Jakob is saying is consoling Camille. She continued to cry. She was speechless. She got up and got dressed. She needed to be alone. "Jak, I need some time. I'm going home." Jak gets out of bed and grabs her. He hugs her tight and begs her to stay. She cries into his chest. He whispers "I love you, Camille. I do." "I love you too, Jakob. I still need to go to think." She walks out.

Camille shakes her head, trying to stop reliving that night. "I still cannot believe this is happening to me." she thinks. She lays in the bed, rubbing her stomach. Her and Jakob haven't really spoken much since that night. And now this. This was truly ironic. She was pregnant. Pregnant for a man who didn't want kids. Pregnant and alone. Now she has a choice to make. To tell him or not. To have this baby or not. Camille was so confused. Crying again. It is all she has done in the last two days. She knows she has to tell him. She couldn't be that woman. Yes, it's her body and her choice. But, this baby is his too. Camille sends a text she is dreading. "Jakob, we need to talk. Can you come to my house?" Jakob was home when the text came through. His heart smiled as he read the words from Camille. He texted back "On my way." He smiled with hope. "Maybe she finally wants to finish what we started" he thought as he drove to her house. Jak wanted things to be back the way they were before the baby talk. He missed her. He missed her smile and the way she argued at the political pundits on Fox/CNN/MSNBC. He missed everything about her. And, he was determined to get her back. He sent her calla lillies to her job every Thursday just because he knew they were her favorite flowers and that it was her favorite day. He would leave her voice messages because he know she liked it. He was wooing her back. He felt like it worked.

Pulling into her driveway, Jakob was confident. He knocked on the door instead of using the key she gave him. He didn't want to seem to pushy. Camille opened the door. "Hi," she said. "Hey there" he replied. "Come in." hey both enter the living room and sit on opposite sofas. Both nervous, neither jump to speak. Jakob starts "Camille, I've missed you. A lot. I hope this means you missed me too." Camille smiles weakly. "I have Jak. A lot." He smiled and sighs with relief. He walks over to sit next to her. Camille dropped her head. She was afraid of his reaction. "I have something to tell you," she mumbled. "Ok baby. I'm listening." Camille inhales deeply. "Well, I don't know what your reaction will be," she says as she raises her head, "But I just found out that I'm, no, we're pregnant." The silence was deafening. Jakob was livid. He couldn't believe that this was happening. He couldn't speak or even think straight. He was seeing red. "WHAT DO YOU MEAN?" he screamed. "Pregnant? Nah, that's not happening, Camille." She knew he wouldn't be happy but she didn't expect this response. The look of total disgust on Jakob's face was undeniable. Camille was crushed. "It IS happening. There is a baby. Our baby, Jakob." Jakob jumps up and begins pacing. "You can't have this baby. You know how I feel. I'll pay for the termination."

Camille was pissed. "Termination? Don't be so clinical. Say it. Abortion, Jakob. You don't get to decide what I'm going to do. Oh, and fuck you. How bout that? That's where you automatically go...to an abortion? I cannot believe you." Camille was screaming at this point. "Just go. I know how you feel now. Get the hell out of my house please." Camille says calmly as she walks towards the door fuming. Jakob knows he should smooth the situation out. But he can't because he is so angry. He follows her. "I've avoided having kids for 38 years. I have no plans to be any kids dad. That's not in my plans, Camille." "I don't need to hear your excuses. I didn't make this baby on my own. We did this. You and I. Remember that? Just leave, Jakob. Go." She opens the door to indicate that this conversation was over. He walks out dejected and pissed. She slams the door in his face. As soon as she turns the lock, she breaks down. The tears spill out of her eyes easily. She runs to the sofa and flings herself on it. She sobs deeply. She is more heartbroken than before. She goes to her room and climbs into bed. Hugging the pillow, she closes her eyes. She cries herself to sleep.

Something shook Camille out of her deep, pain filled sleep. She awoke with a start. Instantly grabbing her stomach. She was cramping badly. "Aaarrrgghh," she yelled. The pain was so intense Camille felt like she was dying. She was curled up into a ball in the middle of the bed holding her stomach. "Oh my God, it hurts. Make it stop." She slid out of the bed onto the floor. Then, she crawled into the bathroom. Camille felt like her insides were being ripped out. She grabbed onto the wall and pulled herself up to turn on the light. Pain hit her again as she screamed and fell to the floor. And, it was there, on the floor where Camille discovered the blood. She knew what was wrong. She knew what was happening in that moment. She did not know why. Why was this happening to her? Why now? She couldn't move. She was in too much pain. She lay there on the cold tiles feeling like she was dying. She couldn't help herself or her baby. She wanted to die. She laid there shaking and writhing in agony for what felt like hours. She

She crawled to her phone to call 911. She crawled to the front door to wait on the ambulance. She felt herself slipping into the darkness once she opened the front door. She knew she had to hold on. In the distance, she faintly heard the sirens. She could sleep now. That's all she wanted to do was sleep. Camille held her stomach as she laid her head on the floor. She was cold. She no longer felt any pain. She was calm. This was over. Paramedics ran towards the open door. "Ma'am , are you ok?" he asked. No response. The female paramedic checked for a pulse. There was none. They tried to revive her. Tried to bring her back. They were too late. Camille was gone. Jakob pulled up to Camille's house in a panic when he sees the ambulance. He runs from the street to her door. He is stopped by a police officer. "Where is Camille? I have to tell her something." he yells. "Sir, who are you? How do you know Camille?" the cop asks. Jakob begins to answer but stops suddenly when the paramedics roll Camille's lifeless body out on a gurney. Her face is covered. Jakob cannot believe this. "Sir, I'm sorry but she's gone." the cop says. Jakob runs to the gurney. "I have to see her. Let me see Camille." Jakob uncovers her face and the tears flow. He can't stop sobbing. He whispers in her ear how sorry he is and how wrong he was. "It wasn't supposed to end like this." he says to no one in particular.

Ladies Love Lyrics: Rihanna "What Now?"

This track is one of the only ballads on Rihanna's new cd. I happen to really love it. There is something very sad, melancholy feel to it. It makes me cry almost every time I listen to it. I like it a lot. This song is "What Now?" and you will enjoy it too. Listen up.


"I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weak
The days I'm stronger, know what so I say
that's something's missing

Whatever it is, feels like its laughing at me
through glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is,
its just sitting there laughing at me
and I just want to scream

What now?
I just can't figure it out
What now?
I guess I'll just wait it out
What now?
Ooohhh what now?

I found the one he changed my life
But was it me that changed
And he just happened to come at the right time
I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm not mugging"

Outside (My) Movie Box: Part 10

Ever since I saw "The Avengers," I have been a little bit obsessed with the super hero characters. Especially Tony Stark aka "Iron Man" So since then I have made it my mission to watch all the movies that were made about the comic book super heroes. I have watched "Thor," both "Iron Man" movies, as well as "The Avengers." The one movie I had not watched was "Captain America." I changed that the other night. I needed to know the background on his character. The movie is pretty awesome. It gave me all the information that I could have ever wanted on the character. I love that he became the soldier that he always wanted to be. He fulfilled his lifelong dream. It was very interesting to see the transformation of Captain America. 

I liked it. I really love the main character. I did not like the way the movie ended. I know that they have to leave us wanting more. And, I do...want more of this story. I know that there is going to be a sequel to "Captain America" in the works. It is tentatively titled "Captain America: Winter Soldier." I am curious to see what the next story line will be. It has a release date set as April 4th 2014. I read that one of my favorite actors, Anthony Mackie :), will be in this one. So, yay for eye candy for me. All in all, "Captain America" was really good and worth my time watching it. All it really did was get me more amped for the next "Avengers" movie which doesn't come out until 2015. Watching movies outside of my movie box has opened up a whole new world for me. I am rather enjoying him.

So Thankful

Today and everyday I am thankful for life. For waking up every day to try to get this thing called life right. Thankful for family...the good, the bad and the indifferent. Thankful for the ability to love and be loved. Thankful for the brown skin that I am in. Thankful that God gave his only son for my sins. Thankful for the talent that I possess. I am just grateful for all the things that have been bestowed upon me. I am not just aware of these things on Thanksgiving but every day. Every day is a gift. My gift. I hope that I am not taking any of them in vain or for granted. I know that I can do better, much better in some areas. I am in a constant state of growing. Ever thankful. Every day. Hope that you guys are as well. Happy Turkey Day!

5 Miles To Empty

My tank is figuratively on empty. I have simply run out of words. Well, good words. Great words. I feel like anything I write would be a pile of hot steaming trash. I could be wrong. I'm just in a bad mood it seems when it comes to writing. I'm sorry if that offends anyone. But, the writers, the writers will understand. I'll try again at a later date. Try to be a better writer than I was yesterday and the day before that. I will try and try until I succeed. I need to be better. It's one of my main goals in life. To be better. In all areas. I am praying that I can achieve this. Ok, I am done rambling. I'll be thankful tomorrow. Until then...enjoy the video that lent its name to this random post.

Get Into It: New Music Tuesday

There is a lot of new music dropping today. One R&B project, one R&B/Pop and one Hip-Hop/Pop project. All different in their own rights. Good music nonetheless. Let's get into them. First up is Rihanna. She is back after barely a year after "Talk That Talk." Rihanna's "Unapologetic" is dope. I have a new favorite song. It is her "Pour It Up." It is the perfect strip club song. The beat is intoxicating to me. I also love "What Now," "Jump," "Phresh Off The Runway," and "Diamonds (remix)." I can play it from beginning to end. It's not a deep or conscious project. It's just feel good music. And, I can enjoy it purely for that reason. "Lost in Paradise" and "Stay" get me into my feelings but in a good way. "Loveeeeeee Song" features Future an artist I do not get the appeal of. The song would be better without him and the auto-tune in my opinion. I fast forward through him and I like it much better. "Unapologetic" is Rihanna's 7th cd. Who knew the "Pon De Replay" girl would have staying power? I know I did not. Anyway, I like it.

Keyshia Cole is back with "Woman To Woman." It is a vast improvement over her "Calling All Hearts." It is a clear R&B cd which is what CAH should have been. I love the title track which is a duet with Ashanti. I really like it. I also love "Trust & Believe," "Signature," and "Zero (feat Meek Mill)." What I really dig is the fact that the cd just flows. I don't skip any songs. I just vibe all the way through it. Keyshia is back. She sounds like her debut self. A little older, little wiser and in love, Keyshia shines throughout this project. I truly enjoy it. I was a little apprehensive about it at first because of the last one. I am glad I was wrong.

Also, dropping today is Nicki Minaj's "Pink Friday: Roman Reloaded: The Re-Up." First off, the title is too long and silly. Secondly, I think it is very wack of artists to add a few songs to a project and re-release it. I think they are taking advantage of their fans. Thirdly, she added 8 songs to it. I believe she could have added a few more songs and released a totally new project. With all of that being said, I like the new songs. Love "Up In Flames," "The Boys," "I Endorse These Strippers (feat. Tyga)," and "High School (feat. Wayne)" the most. "I'm Legit" featuring Ciara makes me want to dance. I can see myself listening to this while getting dressed to go out. I do not think that this project will move major numbers for that reason alone. The songs are cute but not really hard hitting Nicki. But, I am also not her core audience. Music truly is my thing. I cannot think of anything else that moves me as much. I do not think that I will ever get tired of hearing it, talking about it, loving it. I cannot foresee that day in my future. As long as it exists, I will be discussing it. Get into this new music. Enjoy!

BET Changes "Don't Sleep"

I have been a fan of TJ Holmes since he first blessed my screen on CNN. I loved his passion for reporting about stories that meant something to him. He was always passionate about everything. I was shocked when I heard that he had left CNN for BET. What? I saw this as a step down. Not a lateral or upwardly mobile move. CNN is the upper echelon of news reporting. BET is not known for any true uplifting programming. And, truth be told, other than "The Game," "Reed Between The Lines," I do not even watch the channel. BET is suffering from bad leadership I believe under Debra Lee. A channel that was developed for African American based programming is lacking so much depth. But, that is another topic for another day. Holmes new show "Don't Sleep" premiered on October 1st as a 1/2 hour news driven program.

I tuned in early and often. I liked the format, the set and the host. Hated the name. I mean really "Don't Sleep?" It's silly and childish. I think the name should have been rethought. It just doesn't pull you in. Also, Holmes' closing line is corny as hell. "You can go to bed, but don't sleep." It's just not enough for me. My biggest gripe about the show is that it is too short. Only 30 minutes for news programming, BET? Why? The following half hour is being filled with reruns of "The Game." I wanted an hour. My prayers were answered when I read this Washington Post article. Finally, I get an hour. But, here comes the bad news. The show is being pulled from nightly showings to a once a week hour long show. BET still cannot get it right.

There is no other original programming being shown on the network right now. Why wouldn't the powers that be leave the show on all week? I do not get what sense this makes. I haven't been very happy about the programming options on BET for years now. It has progressively gotten worse. "The Game" fired Tia Mowry-Hardrict, the lead of the show. I most likely won't be watching the 6th season of the show. BET ruined it. Tracee Ellis Ross is not coming back for the second season of "Reed Between The Lines" which will leave a huge hole in that show. Ever since the Johnson's sold BET to Viacom, the channel has been on a fast decline. "Don't Sleep" is being dealt the same horrible fate. I want to have hope that the show will stick around. But, this latest move doesn't give me much hope. I am sad. But I will still watch for as long as it shows. You should too. Remember, "Don't Sleep" will now air every Wednesday at 10pm. Get into it and TJ Holmes.

Politics As Usual

You may or may not the man above. Let me introduce you to the governor of my state. His given name is Piyush Jindal. He goes by the very Americanized name of Bobby. He does not answer to his given name. Every move he has made is to strategically place himself in the best position. The problem with hie plan is that his record will follow him. And, it is nothing to be proud of. He is single handedly killing my state. He is so focused on his next political move that he does not care about any of his constituents. He just drafted a letter and sent it to the White House declining to institute the Affordable Care Act (aka Obamacare). The government will pay for the program 100% for the first two years. It would cost the state nothing. It would take care of kids and elderly people who do not have insurance. Jindal refuses to implement it. Thankfully, the President does not need his approval or cooperation. Obamacare is the law. This is just one huge red mark on his record.

One of my favorite political show hosts Mrs. Melissa Harris-Perry wrote an open letter to the Republican Governor. She is also lives in New Orleans as well. She knows first hand what this state needs and is lacking. Her letter is direct and concise.

"If all you want is to reach higher office, pull a 'Palin' and quit now."

She goes on to say that Jindal "does not give a damn about his own backyard." And, she is beyond correct. His actions have shown this in the last few years. He has mentally checked out. When he talks now, his eyes never seem here. He is never coherent. You can read the entire thing here. My hometown paper also took a stance on the Governor. That article is here. The man is politically driven and motivated. The problem is when that motivation drives you to completely disregard the same people who voted for you. Granted, I did not vote for this farce of a man. I am not a fan of anything he has done. I though I would get a break from writing about politics for a while. But, the Republicans keep saying dumb things like this. I think I am done ranting for a while.

And, just because the track below inspired the title, here's a little Jay-Z to take us out! "Politics as Usual"

Let's Talk About: Twitter Topics

Twitter can be the gift and the curse. There are reasons why I love it. I love the interaction with different and/or like minded people from all over the world. I love the fact that I can get information on music, fashion and politics at a glance. One of the best things I've discovered via Twitter have been LowKey's site or My Fair Sweets. But, there is a sense of redundancy that can get irritating. I've talked about it before here, here and here. One thing that I've noticed is that the same topics get rehashed every few weeks. It's exhausting.

Those topics are as followed:

- $200 Dates
- $30,000 engagement ring
- twitter hypebeasts
- titles in relationship

Here's my take on the ridiculous list. I would never demand a man spend $200 on a first date or any date. That is insane. I think that a date can be great no matter the amount of money spent on it. Also, I'm not of the singular mind that a man is the only one who is supposed to pay for the date. Who decides what the appropriate amount of money to spend is? It's silly and it reeks of people who have never gone out on an actual date. Ok, in what average working American's mind is a $30,000 engagement ring feasible? That is in-damn-sane. $30,000??? What in the world? Yes, I am very much a girlie girl. Yes, I would love a nice engagement ring that fits my style. But, what ungrateful woman demands a price maximum on an engagement ring? I could never open my mouth and demand this of the man I love. That is right up there with demanding a proposal. I would never. Twitter has a way of hyping Hip Hop artists and their works. I still do not see the hype of Lil B, Wiz Khalifa, Kendrick Lamar, Rick Ross amongst others.

People on Twitter aren't into titles in relationships. I have never been that girl. If I'm with you, then I'm yours. I like structure and titles. In a relationship, I am your girlfriend, your woman, your girl, your better half. Claim me cause I am damn sure going to claim you. If not, we could just be friends. No benefits though. Just friends with a capitol F. I like things to look a certain way. I don't play games in relationships. Titles are needed by me. I like them. There are other issues that get rehashed. I filter/mute them out of my timeline so I don't have to see them. I don't engage in the talks. It just becomes to much at times. I'm also too old to be discussing some things online. I take Twitter for the entertainment that it is intended to be. Nothing more, nothing less. Twitter is just fun.

Things I Like: Short Stories

Since the moment I finished "50 Shades of Grey," I've been wanting to read a good BDSM story. "50 Shades of Grey" was a huge disappointment to me in more ways than one. I begin to read "The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty" but I haven't really been reading it as I should. So, when I saw a retweet on Twitter about this story, I was intrigued. I found it on Feminista Jones' blog. I read it and became instantly intrigued after the first part. I read the following 3 parts. It is a very good series. I love it. I am not into the whole bdsm lifestyle in real life. It's very intriguing in print. This series is very well written. I love when an author can paint a picture with words. I saw this story in my head while reading it. I cannot wait to read more. You guys should def check it out. I've listed the 4 parts below. Read and enjoy!!!

Part 1 "Push The Button"

Part 2 "This Is How It Works"

Part 3 "Sapphire Part 1"

Part 4 "Mark of the Beast"

Classic Music: Toni Braxton

Toni Braxton's debut cd is a classic. It is soulful, beautiful R&B music. She was dubbed the "new Anita Baker." She has the same throaty, deep voice. I was a fan from the very beginning. I love Toni. She is a fave of mine. I always buy her music. Her debut cd has sold 10 million copies since its release. That's major numbers in an industry that's struggling. She was something new. A welcomed songbird in the industry. I loved her haircut, her style and her voice. Toni was just awesome. The fact that the material matched the packaging was a huge plus. The girl could sannnnggg. And, that's all I needed to know about her. I was all in.

Every single was gold. The cd contain 12 tracks. Of those 12, 6 of them were singles. Her first single was "Love Shoulda Brought You Home" and it was included on the "Boomerang" soundtrack. It is still one of my favorite tracks by Braxton. She followed with "Seven Whole Days," "How Many Ways," "Breathe Again," "Another Sad Love song," and "I Belong To You." I loved every one of them. I remember being in the 9th grade on a field trip. My friends and I played her tape all day. It stayed in constant rotation with us. I literally never got tired of it. Her voice is so unique and I love unique voices in music. She never lets me down with her material. So, it was easy for me to pick this project as a classic. It has been for me since 1993. Take a trip down memory lane. Enjoy it.

Petition to Secede

Not when George W. Bush was leading us into a war on the hunt for non-existent weapons of mass destruction. Not when Bush was tanking the economy. But, now. Now, when the country has overwhelmingly re-elected the Black President again. Now, when the people have spoken by more then 3.5 million votes on who they believe in more. Only now have 23 states started a petition to secede from the Union. Why? Why now? The only thing I see is color. I am not a woman who sees racism wherever she looks. But, I am a woman who knows racism when I see it. Other than the President self identifying as a Black man and looking like a Black man, I cannot understand the issues. In his first term, he was stunted by filibuster after filibuster by the GOP. He was also met with roadblocks to any and almost everything he tried to do. I do not know of any other President in recent history that has been faced with so much hatred and insubordination. From day one, Senator leader Mitch McConnell said that their (GOP members) only goal was to make President Obama a one-term President by any means necessary. Ironically, they failed. Miserably. So, now there is this plan to embarrass him. It makes me sick that people are this blatantly racist.

There are two articles that I've read over the last few days that have shined a light brightly on this subject. They are this article and this one. Please do yourself a favor and read the ridiculousness that is white privilege in America. Who the hell do these people think they are? Also, how stupid are they? Yes, you can petition until you are blue in the face. But, the kick of this situation is this: in order to secede, you NEED the permission of the President. On the White house website, you can file a petition. If it gets 25,000 signatures in a 30 day period, the President will review it and decide what to do. But, seriously, what President in his right mind would give into a tactic such as this? One does not reward unruly children with gifts. I read the below and had to share because it was so true.

Dear Louisiana: You cannot remove yourself from a union that pays to feed, educate, shelter, and clothe a large portion of your population, subsidizes the vast majority of your economy, provides border-free tourism to support your largest university's athletics department and your largest cities, and routinely makes massive payments to protect, restore, and rebuild your coast.

You would have to create treaties and pay tariffs in order to import, refine, and then export for sale any oil pulled from offshore. You would have to pay a fine to continue using any interstate roads, pipelines, trains, etc. You would no longer benefit from the use of Border Patrol, ICE, The Navy, Air Force, Marines, NASA, Army, or the nationally funded National Guard. You would also need to create your own air space controller system, and have those people interact routinely with now international airspace controllers. Speaking of, any use of aircraft near the border of ...your airspace is a threat, and outside of your airspace is an attack.

You are now not allowed to use nuclear power, losing Louisiana many thousands of jobs and requiring you to purchase all electricity from the USA. Sorry, but new countries with nuclear powers are a threat, remember?

Do you have family in the USA? You cannot visit without a visa, and any attempt to do so is illegal immigration. Your students are no longer accepted as licensed professionals outside of your borders without retaking any licensing exams and the federal money given to your schools is no longer, so the higher education program will collapse. Healthcare companies no longer have any bylaws or contracts, so health insurance effectively does not exist in this new country. There go the hospitals.

Your police force cannot cross the border, so anyone leaving your state after committing any crime is safe under amnesty laws, and you will have to pay a high price to extradite them- and put them in now unfunded prisons.

I could go on but surely you see the idiocy of this idea by now?

Thought so.

One last note: Your agriculture is now entirely unable to be sold anywhere but Louisiana due to import and quarantine laws- both animals and plants.

Leaving the union sounds great when you are cherry picking your issues, but in reality, the USA needs you infinitely less than you need it.

I thought after the election I would get a break on blogging about politics. I was worn out. Happily worn out after the President won. But, here we are a week later, and there is even a more ridiculous political conversation. I am disgusted all over again with people. Some ignoramus from my home state started this petition here. well, I am a Democrat living in Louisiana who is not signing a petition so frivolous and childish. I like my President. I believe in him. And, furthermore, if I could live through the Presidency of an idiot like George W. Bush, then I can surely survive this one. I just want people, in general, to be smarter. Think with the brain in their heads and not the hate in their hearts. And, if anyone is so upset with the President and the state of this great country, then they should all feel free to leave...this country. Book a flight and catch a plane overseas. Trust me, you will never be freer anywhere on Earth than you are here in America. That I know is true.

The Scenario: Don't Let Me Win...

The battle of the sexes. It's a topic that never gets old. Women and men deal with it every day. It's just a natural part of life. Men and women battle it out about any and every thing. I am a proud woman. I can stand independently, take out my own trash and take care of myself. I do not want to change a tire, cut the grass or kill a spider. That's just me. I fully believe in male and female dominant roles. I know what I will and won't do. I am super competitive. I play to win. Always. Even when I'm playing for fun, I'm playing to win. that is the point, correct? But, when it comes to games, actual games, I always play to win.

In the scenario where I am playing a game with a guy, I do not want him to take it easy on me. For what? That would mean that I am weaker, less intelligent than him. That is NEVER the case with me. Yes, I am a woman. I am smart, I am a thinker, I am equal to any man. But, I do not want to be a man. Nor do I believe that I don't need a man. I would feel like a man was coddling me if he LET me win. I'm Kenda. I'm not big on charity or sympathy. I want to earn every win. I want to know that it was my win. That my hard work, my intelligence won the game for me. I like to gloat I can admit that. But, I wouldn't want my guy to give into me on something like a game. He knows it too. I like the thrill of the game. I love the excitement that leads up to a well played victory. Some women may want a man to allow them to win. I'm not that kind of woman. I demand more. I deserve more. I play to win. As does he. And, this is what a healthy competition looks like. What about you guys? Let's dish.

New Music: Raheem DeVaughn

Raheem DeVaughn is so consistent with his material. He just dropped his "Heemy Taught Me 2" mix-tape. You can get it here. I always enjoy his music. He's incredibly underrated. This is his 15th mix-tape. His voice is so smooth and so mellow. This project is as great as I knew it would be. I love the fact that he included some of his previous tracks on here.

He dismantled Trey Songz' "Love Faces." He totally made it his own. It made me love it even more. There isn't one song that I dislike on here. It's just great music. One cannot deny that. I pressed play and never touched anything else. It's been on repeat for well over an hour. I have been vibing to it. That's the way that Raheem's music always makes me feel this way. I am thoroughly enjoying every second of it. You will too. Go ahead and download it. Thank me later.

Get Into It: HBO's "Treme"

"Treme" is an HBO show based on New Orleans right after Hurricane Katrina. It shows the personal struggles of families as they tried to rebuild. It looks into the political side of things as well as the law enforcement side of things. It touches on every story that needed to be told. It shows the way New Orleans rose from the ashes. Everything about this show makes me happy. It is a great representation of my city. The city that raised me, the city that fought back from a huge adversity. I knew that the team that was behind the stellar show "The Wire" would get it right. The producers got Baltimore spot on and they did the same with New Orleans. The characters feel real and authentic. The music is another pivotal character on "Treme."

"Treme" gets it so right. The feel of New Orleans, the people, the food, and the resilience translates through the screen. I love how authentic this show feels. I love how the producers portray all aspects of this city. From the cops to the lawyers to the politicians all the way to the normal people, New Orleans is fully represented. It is just a great show that I thoroughly enjoy. "Treme" is in the middle of its third season. It has gotten better and better. It will wrap after its shortened 4th season. I will be sad to see it go. but, am so thankful that it was shown. "Treme" makes this native New Orleanian uber proud of the city that birthed me. It is on HBO on Sunday nights @ 9pm. Get into it.

Never As Random As It Seems

° PRESIDENT BARACK H. OBAMA WON! I seriously couldn't be happier about it. 4 more years of the audacity of hope and forward moving. I'm excited about it all. I can honestly say that I am so glad that the election is over. I was at my limit with the ads and mudslinging. I was burnt out. I love politics but even I get tired of them. Go #44!!

° Disney is developing a new show called "Girl Meets World." It will focus on the preteen daughter of Cory and Topanga Matthews of "Boy Meets World" fame. I was an uber fan of BMW so I am all the way here for it. Cory and Topanga were my favorite young couple. The show was just great. I cannot wait to see what they do with it.

° When I voted two weeks ago, I had a nice encounter with the white woman checking me in. She pronounced my name correctly. Imagine my surprise. I have a very unique name. Most people that I've encountered usually mispronounce it. And, then she gave me a great compliment. She said "What a pretty name you have. It's so unique." I have to thank my Dad for that. It made me feel truly special in that moment. Especially since I've had such a love/hate relationship with my unique first name.

° New music is great. Good new music is better. I am thankful for RaVaughn's "Love Always" mixtape, Ne-yo's new cd "R.E.D." as well as Miguel's "Kaleidoscope Dream." I cannot stop playing either projects.

° "Scandal" was finally picked up for a full second season. That is awesome news because the show is great. It is by far my favorite new show. Kerry Washington is golden as Olivia Pope. I am absolutely here for Columbus Short as Harrison and Katie Lowe as Quinn. It's just a really great show. I turned my baby onto this show.You guys should check it out as well.

° I abhor my wisdom teeth. They need to be taken out ASAPtually. The pain is truly unbearable. But, I am afraid to have surgery.And, I hate hospitals and hospital-like settings. Do you see my dilemma? Something has to give and soon. I am searching for a new dentist since my dentist retired :(

° I love my family. I really do. But, some of them make it so hard to do. I am thisclose to spazzing on one particular member. I am trying not to go there because she is my Aunt. But, she is on super thin ice. I am done trying. I just need her to stay far, far away from me. I am going to pray about. I need others to pray for me too on this issue.

° If the weather cooperates, I can finally get some wear out of my boots, peacoat and scarfs. I love the winter for this alone. And, I can buy more boots. Need them.

° Ok, I know I shouldn't feel smug and uber happy that my candidate won the Presidential election. But, I do. There is a tumblr page dedicated to Romney supporters mourning. You can catch it here. It is hilarious.

° Watching the aftermath of Hurricane Sandy and my heart truly goes out to the survivors. It reminds me in so many ways to Katrina. Which brings me to this. The song below always makes me cry. It's called "A Long Way Home" by Roi Anthony. It was released after Hurricane Katrina. It truly summed up how I felt at that time. "Why do I feel, I feel like a refugee when I'm from New Orleans? I'm a loooonnnggg way from home and all my memories. I've got to find my way, find my way back, somehow back down to New Orleans. I know somebody feel me."

From Books To Films

I love when I read really great news. Such was the case last week on two different days. There are a feww books that played a major part in my upbringing. They altered me in some way. Those books stayed with me from the moment I finished them. Omar Tyree's "Flyy Girl" is one of those books. It has to be one of my favorite books growing up. It was released when I was a freshmen in high school. I was enthralled with this book. The main character Tracy was like so many girls I knew. She was a relatable character. I always pulled for her while reading it. I've read this book at least 8 times. I was very excited to read that it has been greenlit for a film. It's a wonderful story that all young girls need to know. Tyree has written two follow-up books about Tracy as an adult. I am curious to see what the powers that be are going to do with this material. Cannot wait to see this book brought to life on a big screen.

Another book I love is Zane's "Addicted." It is being made into a movie by Lionsgate. Boris Kodjoe and Sharon Leal are already attached to star in this film. If you are unfamiliar with Zane's work, you need to get into her. She is a Black woman who writes erotica for and about Black and Brown folks. Her books like "Nervous," "Skyscrapper," "Sex Chronicles," and "The Sisters of APF," are all great erotica novels. I am very curious to see how much of the sex scenes will make the movie. They are essentially a character in all of her books. "Addicted" is about a married woman who has a severe and dangerous sex addiction. Her life is truly page turning. This has the potential to be a huge hit. I will be there early to see this one. As a reader, I am always cautious of my favorite books being turned into movies. I am, however, optimistic. I am always excited to see Black people on the big screen, especially when the material is good.