Ladies Love Lyrics: Marsha Ambrosius' "So Good"

This Marsha Ambrosius song has been on repeat since this past weekend. It's "So Good" off her latest cd "Friends & Lovers" that came out this summer. I am a sucker for a lyrically dope song and Marsha knows how to do that. I love this whole project. She can do no wrong in my book. I am a fan. Get into these lyrics and this song. 

"I can tell by looking at youThat thing is good, good good goodI can't help myself around youI wanna do every thingI ain't gonna front, I'm upfrontBlatant 'bout what I wantI want you here right now, babyLook at me the way that you doYou want me tooAnd I don't wanna waste no time

So make it rain and let it fallDown on me,I can't believeThat your love so goodSo goodYour love so good, so goodSo good to me

Outta space I'm on a high toThat shit is goodDon't let me come downPut your lips where I can find youAnd take me nowRun it deep like a running back,Make you work it back,Make me want it badMake me want you bad, babyTill the sun comes up and skies blueAnd over again I'll take it babe
Just make it rain down on me

I can't believe that your love is soGoodSo goodYour love so good, so goodSo good to me

You pulling on my hairYou're right between my legsYou're kissin' on my neckI'm scratching on your backI say baby go headGo hard, I say go aheadBaby, take it there..."

It's My Hair: 3 Years & Counting!

This past week I reached a major milestone. I've been natural for 3 years now. It's been three long years since I last had a relaxer. I am more than amazed with myself. My hair has grown so much in the last year. In the beginning, there were detractors, people who didn't support my journey. I persevered. I made a choice for me and any future daughter I would have. I wanted to know what my hair felt like in its natural state. I wanted to see if I could wean myself off of my dependency to relaxers. I was able to do all of that. I won. For the last three years, I've been winning. My natural hair journey has been exciting for me. I've learned so much about my personal skill set and my very kinky, very coily natural hair. I am so proud of myself for conquering this huge deal. My hair has grown to bra strap length. I am aiming for waist length hair in the next year or two. Once I reach that level, I do not know what I will do. I've included my favorite hair shots from this year. There have been so many different styles. I like diversity and change. My natural hair works for me. 

I dyed my hair this year. It's been 4 years since I last did this. I am loving my new color. My hair is so healthy and thick and long. I am not used to keeping my hair long. In my former life, I was a scissor happy hair person. But, I decided to see how long I could go without cutting my hair. So far, so good. In the next year, I am just focused on width as well as length in regards to my hair. I want it to stay healthy and keep it's thickness. My hair is truly an extension of me. It's my statement to the world. I love that I've stuck to my natural journey. I know that my vitamin intake has helped with my growth. I have only straighten my hair twice this year. I prefer my hair in its kinky, curly natural state. I am happy with my hair developments. Cannot wait to see what comes next. Healthy hair makes for a happy Kenda. Happy 3rd anniversary to me!!

This Past Week

This past week has been a really heavy one for me for two very specific reason. I dread September 23rd yearly. It is the day my Dad was killed. It's been 16 years. Some years are easier than others. This was not an easy year. Mainly because I have felt like I needed him more in the last two years. Wait, no. I know I needed him in 2013. It was a dark year and I desperately need fatherly advice from my Father. It's moments like those that remind me that I am a fatherless daughter and it sucks. My Dad was not a perfect man or father but he was mine. I look at pictures of him and see myself in his face. It's crazy how one person's act (killing my Dad) could STILL affect a family years later. His picture is below. We have the same nose, same eyes. His face is my face. I miss that man.   

The second reason is the guy in the picture below. He is my Uncle Larry. His birthday was September 26th. He was killed in 2000. He was my absolute favorite person when I was growing up. He was a father figure. I was blessed to have him in my life. He talked to like an adult even though I was a kid. He was straight up and straight forward with me. He schooled me on life, boys, and music. I miss sitting in my room with him and just zoning out to music. He was taken from us way too soon. Unlike with my Dad's case, we received justice. It took 8 years but his killer was arrested and convicted. On his birthday, I always remember those little gems he always dropped on me. I still miss him. This week took a lot out of me emotionally. But, I made it  and I know both my Dad and uncle would want it that way. Happy Birthday, Uncle Larry. Rest in peace, Daddy. 

"Some days, I just miss my Father."

Ladies Love Lyrics: MJB's "Whole Damn Year"

Mary J. Blige has been singing my life's heartache and heartbreaks since her debut cd. She has had the ability to tap into that specific pain for years. Her new single is "Whole Damn Year." From the first listen, I was pulled in. The song is about the time it takes to get over a heartbreak. Mary says it took a whole damn year but it's going on two for me. So, this song is appropriate in this moment for me. Love everything about it because I am a MJB fan. Mary's new project "The London Sessions" will be released in November 2014. Get into these lyrics.

"See winter took most of my heart
And spring punched me right in the stomach
Summer came looking for blood
And by autumn, I was left with nothing

It took a whole damn year to repair my body
It took a whole damn year
It took a whole damn year to repair my body
It’s been about five years

Gon’ take a long long year for me to trust somebody
Gon’ take long long year
Gon’ take a long long year for me to touch somebody
It’s been about five years..."

Thoughts on a Sunday

It's been a long week. Emotions have taken me through it. So, since today is Sunday, I thought I'd focus on the positive. Today's post is all about the things in my life that I am grateful for. 

• I woke up this morning, well rested and in a great mood. 
• My Saints won!!!! It was a home game and it was a great one. We needed this win to shake up the rest of our season. #RoadToTheSuperBowl
• I am thankful for the ability to pray for peace. Peace of mind, body and soul. Because I deserve it.
• I am beyond thankful for the gift of clarity. I needed it desperately. I was acting out of character and it needed to end. 
• I am grateful for lessons learned. I took a leap of faith but it didn't end the way I envisioned. Reason, season, lifetime in full effect here. 
• My hair is growing so fast. It is healthy and I am happy. This is a huge deal to me. Forever grateful for full edges and length and thickness.
• I have really high standards and I am extremely hard on myself. But, I know what I want and what I deserve. I deserve people who know that they want me in their life and at what capacity. I deserve reciprocity. I deserve happiness. I am grateful for the people in my life that get that and give it as well.
• I am thankful for open, honest, frank discussions about any and every thing. I am as grateful for the people I encounter who can engage me intellectually. I thrive off of intelligence. 
• I've realized that I've invested way too much time in the ability of someone other than myself to bring me happiness. The problem with that is if/when that person leaves, so does my happiness. I am grateful for that light bulb moment I had recently. I am Kenda and I determine my own happiness with or without anyone else in my life. 
• I am thankful that I can see myself for who I am , flaws, faults and great things in all. I see me better than any other person walking this Earth. I am me and that is a wonderful thing. Grateful. Thankful.

Who's Angry?!

Three words have never irritated me more than the "Angry Black Woman" title. It is the stupidest stereotype because all humans get angry. All of us. Most of the time I am NOT angry. You know what makes me angry? Someone constantly telling me that I am angry. Or constantly be bombarded with the notion that ALL Black women are angry. If I am assertive or strong or I stand up for myself, I am all of a sudden angry. What simpleton decided that ALL Black women were angry? An idiot for sure. The United States is a hotbed for racial inequality right now. As a Black woman who was born and raised here, I feel like my Blackness is being attacked constantly. It's not often we as Black people see ourselves depicted in a good light on television or on the big screen. It's one of the main reasons I am a Shonda Rhimes fan. Those three little words sparked a public outcry on Twitter yesterday when the NY Times erroneously posted an article that read:

When Shonda Rhimes writes her autobiography," Stanley begins, "it should be called How to Get Away With Being an Angry Black Woman."

Rhimes' Twitter response was golden. And, guess what it wasn't? ANGRY. She seemed more appalled than anything. And, the fact that her new show "How To Get Away With Murder" was created by a white man made the author of that ridiculous article seem even more incompetent. I loved her response as well as those of some of the actors who work for her, especially Kerry's, Viola's and Josh's. I did not see one positive tweet about the article. Everyone felt that dig. After reading that lede, I was not inclined to read the rest. It rubbed me the wrong way. There is a way to offer praise. The article did not do that. It was a backhanded compliment filled piece that no one could feel complemented by. There was no happiness felt while reading it. 

Then, something miraculous happened. Black women started a Twitter hashtag movement. #IWasAnAngryBlackWomanWhen was born. The tweets were mostly sarcastic in nature in response to the article. The crazy thing is I didn't get angry when I read it. I was offended as was every Black woman and anyone who is a fan of the brilliance that is Shonda Rhimes. She is a visionary and a major success story. Her Shondaland Productions owns ABC's Thursday night slots. She is the only Black woman to head a company that has not one, not two but three primetime shows on tv right now. Two of those shows are helmed by Black women. All three shows have casts that are more racially diverse than any other shows or networks. Rhimes should be praised for having the golden touch. 

The NY Times seems to have forgotten that. Thankfully, other credible publications did not follow that lead. Slate, Vox, CNN, and Variety all took a different and better standpoint. The lede of the NY Times piece (which I refuse to link to) was wrong, stereotypical and awful. The author stated that the article was meant to praise Rhimes. But, you do not insult a person's entire being then follow it with shallow compliments. Do. Not. Want. Return To Sender. What the author and the paper should do is print a retraction, apologize for being racist, stereotypical pigs and never do it again. But, they won't. And, in all honesty, Shonda Rhimes doesn't need them to. She will continue to slay Thursday nights as she has for years. Because she is a genius and her shows are amazing. Winning is the best revenge. Make sure you are tuned in at 7pm central on Thursday, September 25, 2014 for the return of "Grey's Anatomy," and "Scandal," and also the introduction of "How To Get Away With Murder."

Around the E-Streets (XV)

• It's been 36 days and Mike Brown's killer Darren Wilson is still free. He has not been seen since August 9th. Why Lawd?! Fix It Jesus!! Protesters are still calling for the cop to be arrested as is the rest of the world. 
• Vogue wrote a bullshit article creating white women with this new era of the booty. The entire web erupts in epic shade and laughter. The hashtag #VogueArticles took over Twitter. I can only shake my head. White folks stay columbusing. 
• LAPD detained a woman, Daniele Watts, they thought was a prostitute. Why did they think this? She is a Black woman who was kissing her white husband in public. That's it. That's all. 
• Ronald Ritchie, the man who called police and set into motion the murder of John Crawford III has changed his story. He now claims that Crawford wasn't aiming the toy gun at people. He only changed his mind AFTER the surveillance tape was released and it shows he lied. I think RItchie should be charged in Crawford's death as well as the cop who killed him. It is like open season on Black people. Damn!
• This entire Ray Rice - Roger Goodell drama is insane. Rice is guilty as hell. But, so is Goodell. If Rice has lost his job, Goodell should suffer the same fate. Crazy that the NFL condemned Michael Vick behind some damn dogs and only gave Rice a slap on the wrist for beating his girlfriend who just happens to be a Black woman. Why don't we matter to people?!? 

• One great thing that came out of the Ray Rice domestic violence/NFL suspension was the #WhyIStayed twitter hashtag.
• Maybe someone should tell Stephen A. Smith to shut the entire hell up already? There was this and now this. Vick bankrolled dog fights. So, is Smith comparing Black women to dogs?!? Really, Black man? I call bs. ESPN should fire him.
• I love children's books that feature Black kids and natural hair. Here is a list of some great ones. 
• Read an interesting article. You should too. It's one woman's take on being the only White person in the room during high school. 
• Word on the streets is that Beyonce' is quite possibly pregnant with Baby Carter #2 and that Jay Z announced it on stage in Paris at the second to last OTR show. Time will tell. 

Get Into It: Chrisette Michele Unplugged Vlogs

Chrisette Michele's voice is e-very-thing to me. Here she is singing "Better." This song has always been one of my favorites by her. I just haven't been able to listen to it without feeling awful and crying. So, I've avoided it for a long time. But, this made it's way to my Tumblr dash and I had to listen. Upon hearing this acoustic version inspired another emotion. I felt hopeful. I can honestly say I haven't felt hopeful in a really long time. It's been about 20 months since my heart was broken. The fact that I know the exact amount of time that has passed also let's me know that I'm not 100% better yet. I have been staunchly anti-love since then. I like that the song is about the possibility of a new love. Granted, I am not there. I don't know if I'll ever be to be honest. But, I digress. Chrisette has one of those heavily jazz influenced R&B soul voices. Her voice is truly an instrument and this video proves it. Get into the effortless way she dismantles this song. I think I love this version more than the original. Also, she is absolutely amazing in concert. Get into the video above and the lyrics below!!

"When I fall for love the next time.
And an arrow’s in my back.
I won’t let the pain get me down, oh no.
I won’t fight back. 

Let the cupid take me wherever he wants to go.
Fly me to the moon like an old jazz love song. 
Cupid, do what you want to do.
The choice is yours. 
When I get where you’re taking me,
Love’s gonna make me...feel better, better, better!

Love’s gonna make me feel better, better, better!
Cause getting to love’s got me losing my mind! 

I’ve been wrecking my brain
love’s so insane.
Cupid, help me please. 
cause Mr. Wrong keeps meeting me!
and I got a funny feeling love is just around the bend so  

I’ll keep on pushing till love falls for me!"

Movie Review: "No Good Deed"

If you guys do not know, I am an Idris Elba fan from way back to the first episode of "The Wire." So, when I heard he was doing a Will Packer movie with Taraji P. Henson, I was all in. Then, about a year later, the trailers dropped. Idris plays Colin, a charismatic, good looking, stone cold killer. He is the definition of a bad guy here. The premise of the movie is that Elba is a escaped convicted killer who's specialty is "violence against women." Henson plays stay at home mom of 2 Terry. Their paths inadvertently cross and drama ensues. 

I loved seeing Elba in a role where it was easy to hate him. I loved seeing Henson in a role that on the surface appears like a docile, helpless one. But, that would be totally wrong. Henson is anything but helpless or docile. In the beginning of the movie, there is apparent sexual tension between the two. There is light flirting between a neglected housewife and a charming stranger. Things take a turn for the worse quickly. It was suspenseful, witty, well written and beautifully shot. This is a movie I will be watching again. I enjoyed it that much. You guys should go check it out. Get into it: "No Good Deed." 

That's Seaux Random!

• My Saints lost their season opener. I am super sad about it. Especially since we lost to the freaking Falcons. I HATE the Falcons. They are our division rivals. Oh well, still a Saints fan, still yelling "Who Dat!"
• While food shopping in Sam's this weekend, I ran into my hs/college ex's Mom & Grandfather. This woman hated me the entire time I was dating her son. I haven't seen her in years. She hugged me & I was so shocked. She was actually happy to see me. We had a conversation. She told me that she missed seeing and talking to me. And, that she didn't know I was back here. It was odd but interesting. It was the weekend of random encounters. There is another one below. 
• I randomly met this man Saturday. He was looking for my apartment manager. He told me his whole life story in a matter 10 minutes. Told me that I have a nice aura and that I was beautiful. It caught me off guard but it made me smile. It wasn't a situation where he was trying to get at me but just an honest exchange between two folks. 
• I had a really good weekend. Slept like a baby. Spent time with my family. Reconnected with some friends. Just a really good few days and I am appreciative of it.
• I think the above took place because I did something I've known for months that I should have. It's not always easy to do the thing that must be done. But, I have to look out for my well being because there is no one else who will do it for me. Loving myself more and more every day. It's my life and I'm gonna live it for me and me alone. 

• My legs got the tan they've needed all year while laying out by the pool early Saturday morning. I love it when the color of my legs matches the rest of me. It doesn't happen nearly enough. I had to take photos to remember this lol.
• I am taking this online modern poetry class. It started yesterday. This first assignment is about Emily Dickinson & Walt Whitman, two of my favorite poets. The class is ten weeks. I cannot wait to see what I will learn from it. 
• Two different people told me that I seem sad and that I don't seem happy. To a point, they were both correct. It's been a very long 20 months for me. I don't feel the overwhelming hurt and pain and sadness that I once did. I also do not feel like there is a dark cloud over me anymore. Am I 100% better? No. And, I honestly don't think I'll ever be. I loved someone deeply and I was hurt just as deeply. That changes you. It changed me in ways I can't even begin to explain. But, I'm better. I still haven't learned how not to cry over it. I'm working on that. But, I'm on my way back to me. That's all I could pray for at this point. I'm taking care of me first, last and always. 
• The fact that Michael Brown's killer Darren Wilson has not been seen or heard from in a month is ridiculous. The fact that he hasn't been charged or arrested is in-damn-sane. There is no justice here if you're Black. This country has no use for us. We seem to be disposable. It makes me sick.
• I have been severely neglecting my blog :( I feel bad about it but the words in my head are ones I don't want to write out or share with the world. They are better left unwritten. I am trying to motivate myself to write more and be better about the upkeep here. I'm trying my best. I promise to be a better blogger, writer, woman. 

Are You Ready For Some Football, Baby?!?

Football is finally back!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you tell that I'm a tad bit excited?!? I am because I love football. The season officially opened last Thursday. But, my team, the New Orleans Saints, play today @ 12 p.m. central. We open our season with an away game playing our rivals the Falcons. When the Saints play, it is a no fly zone so those dirty birds will fail and fall as usual. I am praying that my team has an amazing season which will lead us to the Superbowl!! Geaux Saints! Who Dat!! 

Ladies Love Lyrics: Jazmine Sullivan's "Forever Don't Last"

Jazmine Sullivan is back. And, as a fan, I couldn't be happier. Her latest single is "Forever Doesn't Last." It is my current new favorite song. It's a song that touches me deeply and personally. The concept of "forever" has a very short shelf life in the world today. People say "Forever" when they really mean "right now" or "for the foreseeable future." Anyway, the lyrics of this song are so true. I really love it and the fact that it's Jazmine is singing them. Get into them. 

"I had high hopes for us, baby.
Like I was on dope for us, baby.
Chasing after a high that I'd never get back again.
So we turn into 3 long years.
And it became painfully clear that we would
never see those days again.

But, I guess forever doesn't last too long, 
forever doesn't last too long, 
forever doesn't last too long these days. Hey.  

And, I tried to believe that we would make it.
But, trying don't work so I just have to face that 

forever doesn't last too long these days.

Still think about the good times we had
and how you used to make me laugh.
But baby, I know most times we were miserable.
So every time I wanna call
baby what always help is when I think of the pain
and I realize I'm better off by myself.

Cause forever doesn't last too long, 
forever doesn't last too long,  forever doesn't last too long these days. 
And, I tried to believe that we could make it. 
But, trying don't work and I just have to face that 

forever doesn't last too long these days. 

Lord knows I gave it my all and 
I couldn't save us from falling. 
Cause some people ain't meant to be 
together forever, forever..."

Two Whole Weeks

Truth is, I'm tired. I took a week off from blogging to give myself a break. It's been two agonizing weeks since Michael Brown was executed in broad daylight by police officer Darren Wilson in Ferguson, Mo. Two weeks of protests, over policing, tear gas and tears. Two weeks full of trying not to hate all white people. Two weeks of being fed up with racism and respectability politics. Two weeks too long. It was the tipping point for me. I am still disgusted with the entire situation. Yes, this happened in Ferguson but this is America so we all live in Ferguson. Michael Brown could have easily been my brothers or nephews or friends. Same with Trayvon and Jordan and Oscar and Johnathan. It's just like Renisha could've been me. I am tired of people who look like me being gunned down and no one other than Black people caring. I am sick of it.

I had to take a break because I was tired of crying, tired of hurting. And, most of all, I was exhausted of trying to get white people to understand my plight. I do not get how there can be a GoFundMe account for Michael's killer which has raised over $200k. I do not get the racist and ignorant things that have been tweeted to me and others. It's situations like these that could easily make one lose hope and faith in humanity as a whole. No parent deserves to lose their kid. No parent should have to see their child shot dead in the streets and their body left for hours. Is this not America?? The last two weeks have been too much for me. I had to take a timeout from it all. The sad part is this is far from over. Today, Michael Brown was laid to rest. 18 years old and his life was cut down for no reason. It's not right or just. All I can do is stay diligent and prayerful. Rest in Paradise, Mike Brown. We won't let them forget your name. We will get justice for you.

Just Because I Felt Like It: BeyMA's

Mrs. Carter came to slay the MTV VMA's. And she did. Last night, Beyonce' was the recipient of the Michael Jackson Video Vanguard Award. She performed her entire "Beyonce'" visual cd in a little over 16 minute set. From the first note to the final one, Bey was e-very-thing!! Iconic. Flawless, Fearless. Dope. She gave a great performance. She was worthy of this award. She also took home 3 other Moonmen from the night, making her the 2nd most awarded woman behind Madonna in MTV VMA's history. Get into this performance!!

Ladies Love Lyrics: Eric Roberson's "Mark On Me"

I do love good music. Eric Roberson released his new project "The Box" this month. I haven't stopped playing it. I love it. Especially two tracks "I'm Not Trying To Keep Score" & "Mark On Me." They are the two tracks that I listen to first. And, I always come back to them. Get into the lyrics of "Mark On Me" because they are so dope. I remember that feeling so this song is sorta nostalgic. 

"It didn’t go like I have plannedI thought after we shared an eveningThat I would have the upper handBut the thought of this girl ain't leavingShe’s constantly on my mindAnd I thought it would be the love the way aroundAnd I found, the games I play are played on me right nowBecause I smell her hair, and I smell her perfumeEven though my love she’s not thereAnd I can resume
Oh, she left a mark on meShe left a mark on me…”

A Little Saturday Randomness

• This week has been way too much emotionally. I am drained. I am tired of all of the insane and unjust things occurring right here in America. Being Black is not a crime.
• I am really liking "The Killing" so far. The storyline is very interesting. It's a show set in Seattle. The only thing I hate is that it rains all the time. I mean all the time. That makes the background of every scene dreary and miserable. Other than that, it's a dope show. 
• I was tweeting about the Mike Brown shooting yesterday and used the term white privilege. That brought some certified idiots to my mentions. I love reported people as "spam" on Twitter. It's like voting them off the island. I don't argue with fools. 
• Strangely, I keep waking up with odd bruises on my thighs. I do not know why. Maybe I am running into the door in the middle of the night when I get up to use the bathroom. I am not sure but it's the weirdest thing. 

• I was talking to an associate about long distance relationships. She's concerned about her bf potentially cheating because they are not in the same area. I was in an ldr. Cheating was never a concern for me. That never crossed my mind with him. I don't know if it was confidence in him or confidence in myself but it was never an issue. 
• I'm going to a baby shower today for triplets. I kinda feel some kinda way about it. And, I know rationally I shouldn't. But, the older I get, the louder my biological clock is ticking. I really don't like it. I just don't know how to make it go away.
• On a brighter note, I get to see my favorite cousin tomorrow. Which is always a great time and I need it.
• It's one o'clock in the morning and I can't sleep. Insomnia has returned in a huge way. I am so tired but cannot get rest. I have some Ambien that I'm gonna take. Because I have too much to do later.
• Cramps are a gift from Lucifer and the pits of hell. I do not deserve such pain & anguish every. single. month. Fix It, Jesus!!

Get Into It: J. Cole "Free" (Mike Brown Tribute)

This is why I love J. Cole. The raw emotion in this track echoes my own. There isn't much to say about it. Praying for justice for Mike Brown and his family and his community. Thank you Cole for this track. Get into it. 

Around These E-Streets (XIV)

• KeKe Palmer is heading to Broadway as the first ever Black "Cinderella!!!" I cannot even express my excitement for this. Slay Black girl, slay!!!
• He has a name: Mike Brown. Another day, another unarmed Black teen killed by the cops. The cops have their ever-changing version of what happened, eyewitnesses have another. I believe the witnesses. 
• Because of the killing of Mike Brown, riots started last night. Prayers sent up for everyone there.  
• And, another one, John Crawford,22, killed by cops in a Walmart for holding a toy gun. 
• Here we have white people doing more racist stuff because well, they can. Smdh.          

• Beyonce' Giselle Knowles-Carter will be honored with the Michael Jackson Video Vanguard Award @ this year's MTV Video Awards. The show airs August 24th @ 8pm. She will be presented the award by her husband, Jay Z and daughter, Blue Ivy Carter. I cannot wait to see her performance. 
• I do not understand why President Obama decided to do an airstrike in Iraq. We need to stay out of the Middle East period. 
• I read the most interesting article on Essence. The topic: freezing eggs. It's a topic that intrigues me for so many reasons.
• The great and incomparable actor/comedian Robin Williams is gone. He was 63.
• Social media can be a tool of greatness. Over the weekend, the hashtag #IfTheyGunned MeDown became a trending topic. My contribution is below. For some reason, I always had my middle finger up during college pics.

Gone Too Soon, Robin Williams

 

The actor/comedian legend Robin Williams is gone. He was 63. It seems that Williams committed suicide yesterday morning. I am heartbroken. I am a fan. Have been since the first time I saw "Mork & Mindy." It was a weird show and I was a weird child who grew into a weird woman. My love of his greatness grew more with every movie. I specifically remember the day I saw his "Hook." It was during a class field trip with my Speech and Debate Coach Mr. Block. I loved it. Loved. I still feel the same way about it every single time I watch it. It is one of my favorite movies from my childhood. Then, there was the hilarious "Mrs. Doubtfire." A movie about a man who would do anything including don a dress, makeup and wig, to be with his kids. That touched a special part of me. I think the movie that affected me the most has to be "Dead Poets Society." As a writer/poet, it made me want to be more, explore more. The quotes from that movie still stick with me. I am sorry that Mr. Robin Williams battled with a depression so deep that he he took the only way out he knew how. I hope that he has found his peace. Rest in paradise, Robin Williams.

It's My Hair: Dye Job

I love color. Always have. Dying my hair has been my thing since I was 14. But, I haven't dyed my hair in four years. FOUR! So, to say I was apprehensive is an understatement. I got some great advice from my dope friend Reese. I purchased L'Oreal Technique Excellence HiColor (Browns For Dark Hair Only) in Light Auburn. I got three boxes because I have thick, coarse hair. I also picked up one bottle of L'Oreal 30 Oreo Developer. I parted my hair into four sections. I mixed them in a plastic applicator bottle. I then applied it to my hair starting at the back left fourth. It took a while to apply all of the dye to my entire head. I did not let it sit for long. I rinsed it out with warm water. Then I shampooed and conditioned my hair. Below are my results which I am now ecstatic about. I wasn't that happy about it the day after. But, this weekend, a braidout made me realize how deep my new shade was. In the pics, my hair looks purple but it really isn't. I know that next time, I will leave the dye on longer to get a lighter shade. I am happy with my results. Happy Kenda is happy. Get into my color, honey!

Before:

After: