And They Say...

…if you’re lucky then with age comes wisdom. I thought that the older you get then the more things would make sense. Specifically relationships, love, and friendships. I was wrong. Dead wrong. Have I learned things in all of my almost 34 years? Of course. Have I figured it all out? Not at all. Situations occur and I’m truly stunned by people’s actions.

I do not understand how one could be a despicable human being and look themselves in the mirror daily and be ok with that. I’m pretty straight forward. If I rock with you, you’ll know it. If I don’t, I won’t fake it for anyone. If I do not like you or care for you, I’ll keep you out of my space. It’s that simple. But, nothing in life is always so cut and dry and black and white. Too many folks live in that grey area. I’m not comfortable there. I like to know where I stand with folks. No matter if it’s positive or negative, give it to me straight.

Maybe my expectations of people, places and things were set too high from the beginning. I know I have ridiculously high expectations for myself. And, I expect people to at least be decent human beings who say what they mean. I do not believe that’s too much to ask of folks. Just be. This may result in me being alone a lot. I’m ok with that.

I’m not in the market for new friends. My circle is small but I trust them all with my life. They’ve proven themselves and vice versa. I’ve been betrayed, stabbed in the back, lied to, lied on, disrespected and had the trust broken. I’ve survived it all. It made me cherish the true ones in my life more. It’s also made me more guarded which is a catch-22.

I own every single thing that has happened to me, all that I’ve done. It’s all a part of my journey. I know what I know so far. I’m hungry for knowledge. I’m open to learning more and more. I don’t think we’re put here to figure it all out. Maybe it’s the questions and the quest for the answers are the point of life. It’s thoughts like this that cause my nightly insomnia, like tonight. What do you think?

Question: How Old...

This question was posed on Twitter. And, it caught me dead in my tracks. I was thinking back and I almost screamed. If I would have gotten pregnant the first time I had sex, I would be the mother of a 15 year old child. FIFTEEN!!! What?!? How is that possible? Where did the time go? 15??

A teenager. I would be the Mom of a high school student. That is utterly insane. In-damn-sane. I cannot even wrap my mind around that thought. As a 17 year college freshmen, a baby would have been the last thing on my mind. My college experience would have been cut short or severely different. I would have been a wreck. Now, I do know with the help of my Mom, I would have gotten the mothering thing done. But, I was not mature enough to be any one's mom then. It's strange how a few years can change one's perception. The mere thought of a baby then freaked me the hell out. And now, 15 years later, my thoughts are totally different. I think the question and my answer just really throw me for a loop. I still can't get over the fact that it was 15 years ago. Wow. So, I pose the question to you guys, if you had a child the very first time you had sex, how old would that child be? Let's talk!

Do You Still Believe In Love?

Short answer: No. 
Negative. 
Nope. 
Nah. 

The long answer is complex. I do not believe in love for myself anymore. I tried. I failed. I'm done. I'm very in touch with my feelings. I don't personally think I could handle being in love again. Being in love is great when you're in it with someone who loves you back. Staying in love is dope. Learning how to cope after the person you're in love with decides not to love you anymore is akin to purgatory. I'm not built for that. The possibility of it ending frightens me too much. I can't deal. 

Love shouldn't bring out fear. But, in my mind, the two are closely related. I can't willingly be open to an emotion that keeps hurting me. And, maybe I wasn't meant for this particular life. Maybe I'm not that girl. As I'm writing this, the tears are flowing. I swear I've never been the weepy one. But, this year & the actuality of losing love has turned me into her. Love doesn't hurt. I know this. But, the person you love can. And, that's the part I won't ever be ok with. I don't want to take a chance anymore. I don't want to talk to you on the phone or text with you. I don't need to get to know you. I won't be having sex with you. Just no. Do. Not. Want. I'm decidedly single for these reasons.

I am keenly aware of the fact that I am broken. Also, that my brokenness is speaking here. People say once your heart has been broken that time will heal you. That, quite frankly, is a load of crap. Once any person has been broken, they are forever broken. They may heal and move on. But, that broken part of them is still there. They learn how to live with the ache. Nothing broken is every put back together the same way. It's not possible. My own views of being in love are warped. I see it through broken lenses. It's tainted and skewed and wrong. But, it's mine, nonetheless. I stand behind my word and my feelings, no matter how offcentered they may be.

I cannot dream of being in love again because I can't get over the love I'm in now. It's been months and I'm still in love with the man who hurt me the most, the man who broke me. So, here I am, a brokenhearted fool who cannot stomach the idea of love. I'm very anti-love, anti-feelings these days. It took me forever to admit how much I really wanted certain things. I really wish I would not have done so. I'm old enough to know some things. And, maybe what I've learned thus far is that love isn't for me. I never dreamed I'd be almost 34 and alone. I just figured that I'd be a wife and a mom by now. Maybe none of that is part of my destiny. Maybe it was never my dream to begin with. Silly me. So, anony, there is your long answer to a short question. 

Food For Thought: Love

This question was posted on Tumblr by Arsenicandgoldlace a few hours ago. It instantly caught my eye. This question had my mind racing because I had two different answers. I do not believe that love cancels out a person's ability to hurt someone they love. I've had family/friends/lovers hurt me. Their love for me didn't stop them from doing so. They hurt me. And, I am guilty of the same. Of hurting the ones I love. It was never intentional, But, we've all done it. It is something that none of us can live without. And, even when we've been hurt by love, torn apart by it, or crushed by it, it is still the most essential emotions that humans can exert. I love love. Even where I am right at this moment, I can say that and know that its true. It's that important, that deep. I've always said that I cannot define love with words but I know it when I feel it. It is an emotion that is undeniable and unlike anything I've ever felt. Lace and I had a back and forth dialogue about the topic. I posted it below. It is always interesting to hear others view on love and relations.

I stand by my words. We give so much power to the ones we love. We give it to them in hopes that they will cradle our love and hearts. We hope and pray that they never hurt us and vice versa. Love in any and all forms can be tricky. When you love anyone, you are carrying that person's heart in your hands. It is so easy to fumble with it when you aren't paying attention. I know I have to be better about the things I do and say. I just wish others in my life would acknowledge that as well. I put up a good tough girl front. But, I hurt, I cry, I feel pain. I actually think that I am more sensitive than most realize because of my strong exterior. That's partly my fault. We all need to be more careful with the ones we love because life is indeed short. We should tell the ones we love that we love them while they are here. I would love to hear from others on this topic. Let's dish. What's your take on it?

*Sidenote - This wedding cake is just DOPE. I had no other reason to use this pic other than I dug it*

Asked & Answered

           

 

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Yes.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? Hell No.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? Two days ago.           

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? Yep, it's good manners.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Nope.

6. Do you think your life will change dramatically this year? Here's hoping!           

7. Are you a social or an antisocial person? Both. It depends on the situation.           

8.  Do you care if people talk badly about you?  Nope bc that's their opinion. I have my own. 

9.  Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? Yep; brothers & nephews.

10. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. My hair is frizzy :-(

11. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? Yep.

12. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Ty, Josh & Matt

13. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Right now :-(

14. Do you get a lot of colds? Nope but my allergies are killing me.

15. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? A street vendor in DC.

16. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I have no clue.      

17.  Does anyone hate you? Not that I know of & I don't care.            

18.  Did you have a dream last night? Yep & it was very odd. Tattoos and exes.           

19. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Earlier today.      

20. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Hopefully.           

21. Did you have a good day yesterday? It was better than Thursday so I guess so.           

22. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?  Yeah.           

23. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Laundry.            

24. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? Yesssss!!!                         

25.  How’s your heart? It's still beating which is amazing after all it's been through.            

Layers Of Me

LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE

- Name: Kenda

- Eye Color: A Lovely Shade of Brown

- Hair Style/Color: Depends, either curly or straight/Jet Black courtesy of L’Oreal

- Height: 5’4”

- Clothing style: Casual Chic with a few trendy pieces

- Best physical feature: It’s a toss-up: boobs, legs, cheeks on my face.

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE

- Your fears: Spiders, snakes, ending up alone.

- Your guilty pleasure: Spa Pedicures.

- Ambitions for the future: Writing, Travel, Getting to happy again & again.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS

- Your first thoughts waking up: Lately? I just went to sleep.

- What you think about most: A situation I can’t control or fix.

- What you think about before bed: If I will actually sleep tonight.

- You think your best quality is: My creative mind.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?

- Single or group dates: Single.

- To be loved or respected: Ideally, loved by someone who respects me.

- Beauty or brains: Beauty fades, dumb lasts forever therefore brains.

- Dogs or cats: Dogs.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

- Lie: More often to myself.

- Believe in yourself: I do, realistically.

- Believe in love: I do. I know it exists. I’ve had it twice for a moment.

- Want someone: Just one…all the time.

LAYER SIX: EVER?

- Been on stage: Yep. It’s thrilling.

- Done drugs: Yeah. I don’t get the hype in it.

- Changed who you were to fit in: Nope, I am me. Love me or leave me alone.

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES

- Favorite color: Cerulean, lilac & canary.

- Favorite animal: Tiger.

- Favorite movie: “Annie”

- Favorite game: Scrabble and Spades.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE

- Day your next birthday will be: Saturday, December 14

- How old will you be: 34. And, I am already dreading it. *le sigh*

- Age you lost your virginity: 17 1/2

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL

- Best personality: Intelligence, Witty, Funny, Common sense.

- Best eye color: Brown

- Best hair color: Black

- Best thing to do with a partner: Random convo’s, laughing, make love, travel.

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE

- I love: myself. It’s the most important relationship I have.

- I feel: like there has to be a reason for this. I just haven’t figured it out yet.

- I hide: my emotions from the people I love the most.

- I miss: that special connection that I shared with someone. It’s an overwhelming feeling that never goes away, not even when I’m asleep.

- I wish: I knew how things were going to end up. I wish I had the answers already.

A Question Or Two

1. Are you young @ heart or an old soul? Early bird/night owl? °Old Soul, Night Owl°

2. How do you express your creativity? °Writing poetry, blogging°

3. Do you believe in luck? °A little bit°

4. When have you felt most alive? °Whenever I am playing with children°

5. What has been troubling you lately? °Lots. Most of it I cannot control but it troubles me still°

6. Do you want to be perfect? °Nah, but I do want to be better°

7. Would you prefer to live? A city? The suburbs? The countryside? The mountains? °It depends: I'd prefer to leave near water or in the suburbs when/if I have kids°

8. Name a movie that you knew would be terrible just from reading the title. °District 9°

9. What holiday do you most look forward to? °Christmas°

10. Do people change? If so, how do you keep a relationship together when both of you start to change? °Yes, we're all changing and growing. You either adapt or you leave.°

11. You’ve got the TV on, but you’re not really watching. What channel is the TV on? °Lately, MSNBC°

12. Do you practice what you preach? °I try my best too°

13. You know at least one person named Michael. Tell me about him. °He's one of my oldest, dearest friends. He's my brother from another mother. He can always make me laugh.°

14. Describe the last time you were very angry at someone. °It was a few weeks ago. Has to do with a family member & things that were said behind my back°

15. If you could pick anywhere to live the rest of your life, where would it be? °Today, I'd want to be somewhere far, far away like Fiji°

16. Are you hard-headed? °Absolutely°

17. Do you drink? Smoke? Do drugs? Why, or why not? °I drink, that's all. Because I want to.°

18. Describe your perfect day. °Waking up near a beach, breakfast picnic, day spent walking the beach, playing in the water. Watching the sun set and drinking champagne°

19. Where was your favorite place to go when you were a little kid? °The library. It's still one of my favorite places°

20. Have you ever laughed uncontrollably when it was socially inappropriate? °Always°

21. What was the last song that was stuck in your head? °Tamar Braxton's "Love & War"°

22. Do you like the type of music your parents listen to? Do your parents like the type of music you listen to? °Yep x 2°

23. What is something you want to change about your current situation? °My location & life style in general°

24. Do you know what makes you happy? °I'm not so sure any more. Maybe I need a new source of happiness°

25. Predict what your life will look like a year from now. °It has to be better, greater than it is today°

26. What do you use more often: your intuition or logical reasoning? °My intuition°

27. Tell me about the last book you read. °"The Dreamgiver" was about following your heart to getting to your dreams°

28. You win a scratch-off lottery game that gives you $2000 a week (after taxes) for the rest of your life. Do you keep your job? °Yes°

29. What part of the past year sticks out in your mind? °Well, December sticks out so far. But none of the reasons are good though°

30. Name a TV series you didn’t enjoy until after it ended. °"That 70's Show"°

31. What is the best TV theme song ever? °Moesha or Living Single or Fresh PRince°

32. What’s your “quirkiest” habit? °I have to have the closed captions on the tv...whether it's muted or not°

33. Give me the story of your life in six words. °It has to get better right?°

Things To Know

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel? Looking them in the eyes when they are telling me how they feel.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? I was angry because my SIL is a complete and total dumb ass. I'm not angry anymore, however, she is still in fact a dumb ass.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them? I call HIM & tell him how much I love him. And, for him to not grieve too much for me.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid? I tell the ones closest to me. I enjoy time with them all doing various silly things. I would be afraid at first. Then I would pray and give it to God. Whatever's meant to be, will be.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love
and Trust. Love. Because with love comes trust. None of us could exist without love I don't think.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not? I go to work. My job has to do with my well being. I need money to live. I'd feel extremely bad. but, self-preservation is a must.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most? They are the same person. So, yes.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
I would tell him that I understand his feelings and I am flattered. But, I am in love with the only man for me. Furthermore, our friendship means to much to jeopardize it with either of us being in love with the other.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not? I would. Because Mr. Williams was important to me. I think his family would love to have him back for at least an hour. If only to get to say goodbye.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? Totally. Fiercely loyal.

11. Does love = sex? No, you can have one without the other. But, the real question is why would you want to?

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not? I don't know if I'm that selfless. In this economy willingly giving up a job is not the move.

13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person? It's been a few weeks. It was one of my siblings. It's private though.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back? I love them.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose? Listening to music. Because I live for it.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you? Multiple times today. He is my Love.

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why? Drinking too much wine a few weekends ago when I was out with old friends. Because the hangover was the pits.

18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
My brother because he owns a gun.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
I don't know how to do give CPR o_O

20.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision? My grandmother would want me to chose the newborn so that he/she deserves to have a life. I would follow her wishes.

21. Are you old fashioned? In many ways, I am. I didn't realize this until I hit 30 though.

22. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it? Today. Being nice never hurt anyone.

23.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why? I do not like this question. But, true love with the broken heart.

24.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be? I would wish that I could have one last conversation with either my Dad or my Uncle Larry.

50 Shades of "K"

Let's dive right into it. Kinky Questions, Kinkier Answers. Ok maybe not really. Either or, they were asked, so I answered. Enjoy this peek at another side of me.

1: Kitchen Counter, Couch, or on top of the dryer? Kitchen Counter

2: A fictional person that you think would be good in bed: Russell Stringer Bell

3: If you had a penis for a day, what are five things you would do? Grab it, stroke it, pee, have sex and look at it

4: Something that never fails to make you horny: Him calling my name in THAT WAY.

5: Where is one place you would never have sex: In a Church

6: The most awkward moment during a sexual experience was when ______________ Dude couldn't keep an erection. Ummm it was mad awkward.

7: How would you feel about taking someones virginity? Do. Not. Want. Ever.

8: What is the best way to sexually bind someone: Handcuffs, Rope, or Other [if other please explain]: I chose other. Scarfs are sexier and silkier. And aren't too binding.

9: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in? LOVE. Tattoos on brown skin are so sexy to me

10: What was your reaction the first time you saw a penis/vagina? I am sure I was amazed that a penis was so different than a vagina.

11: Have you ever been called a freak? Why? Yes. Because I know what I like done to me and what I like to do.

12: Is one orgasm enough? Are multiple orgasms necessary? One really great orgasm could be enough. But, why would anyone deny themselves multiples if they can achieve it?

13: Something that you have hidden in your room that you don’t want anyone to find:The only thing I have that I wouldn't want a specific someone to find is my bullet.

14: What is one thing that NEVER makes you horny? Corny pick up lines from dudes I have no interest in.

15: Two things you like about oral sex: Like: The contact of his tongue on me and the pleasure that it provides

16: Weirdest sexual act some has performed [or tried to perform] on/with you: Tongue kissing my toes. Eww

17: Do you feel comfortable going "commando"? Sure do

18: Is it ever okay to not use a condom: Only when married

19: Morning, Noon, or Night? Technically any time but since I have to choose :Morning

20: A food that you would like to use during a sexual experience: Strawberries, whipped cream

21: How big is too big: If it hurts in a bad way, then it's too big

22: One sexual thing you would never do: Using a strap on a man

23: Biggest turn on: The right thing said in the right way, nice arms, great smile

24: Three spots that drive you insane: Breasts, under ears, hips

25: Worst possible time to get horny: Anytime having sex is not an option

26: Do you like it when your sexual partner moans: Si, por favor

27: Worst sexual idea you ever had: An elevator

28: How much fapping is too much fapping: If you prefer it to actual sex, it's way too much

29: Bald, landing strip, Jumanji: Landing strip

30: Would you be offended if your significant other suggested you get plastic surgery? Tremendously

31: Is it good sex if you don’t nut: It definitely can be

32: Fill in the blank: "If he ____________, we are fuckin": If he looks at me like that one more time, we are fuckin

33: What your favorite part of your body: Breasts

34: Favorite foreplay activities: Sexual teasing conversation, light touches that aren't neccessarily sexual, kissing

35: Love (>,<, or =) Sex For those of us who don’t remember our math thats “greater than, less than, or equal to]: Love trumps sex. And, sex with someone you love is always better

36: Do you own any sex toys? (what is it? (how long have you had it?) Yes. A bullet, about a year or so.

37: If you were a stripper, what would your name be? Per this chart Roxie Jugs ha!

38: Is there anything you do on Tumblr/Twitter that you would not like your significant other to see? Nope. He follows me there, so he sees all. I'm more than ok with that.

39: Have you ever had sex outside? Yep

40: Booty or Boobs? Boobs

41: Have/would you ever had a threesome? Haven't but would

42: Do you watch gay/lesbian porn? why/why not? Gay, no. Lesbian, yes. Because it's so different from my life.

43: Have/would you ever have sex on a plane? Haven't. Must do.

44: What is one song you’d like to have sex to? It's a tie between Anthony Hamilton's "Float" & Jill Scott "All I"

45: What is something nonsexual that makes you horny? Hearing HIM talk about things that excite him

46: How small is too small? If dude has to ask, it's too small IMO

47: Have you/would you sex in/on a car? I have. On & in.

48: Sex in front of an audience, Yay or nay? Depends on the circumstance.

49: Do you think you're too sexual, not sexual enough, or average? More than average but never too sexual

50: What is too kinky for you? Anything involving kids, animals, peeing, and sadistic acts.

Questions & Answers You Might Not Hear Everyday

A. If you could get away with one murder in your lifetime without any legal, social, or emotional repercussions, would you kill someone? No, I'm not that heartless. I couldn't take a life just because.

B. What is your first thought when you receive a message on Tumblr, are you excited for the idea of someone from potentially the other side of the world wanting to talk to you or fearful that someone will criticize you? Excited...because I know that 95% of the time, it's my Love.

C. Have you ever looked down on someone because you thought your religious views were superior? No. That would've be counterproductive to what my God wants.

D. Would you rather know everything the universe has to offer but in exchange lose all emotions or remain the way you are now? Remain the way I am now. I'm one with my emotions. I need them.

E. If you could live and be healthy without sleeping or eating/drinking, which would you cut out of your life? Sleeping. It's overrated.

F. If you could take on the exact body and form of anyone else on Earth, who would it be? There is this dancer but I can't remember her name. Her shape is ridic though.

G. Would you rather burn or freeze to death? Freeze.

H. If it meant it would solve all world hunger, war, disease and bigotry, would you spend the rest of eternity in Hell? Nope. I'm not that selfless yet. I know it would be for the greater good. But, we're talking about my life here.

I. Was the first crush in your life something you had or something someone had on you? He had one me. Kindergarten. His name was Eric & I did not return the affection. He teased me recent less. Called me Kenda Calendar ugh.

J. Could you live without having sex ever (again) in exchange for eternal youth? Hell. No. Why would I?

K. Have you ever watched a full length pornographic movie? Yep. Multiple ones.

L. The Beatles or The Rolling Stones? The Beatles.

M. If you could have the ability to manipulate matter or energy, which would you choose? Matter.

N. What was the worst nightmare you ever had? It was awful. It involved a violent, bloody murder scene.

O. Would you rather spend one year with your one true love just to never see them again or the rest of your life with second best? One year with my true love. Settling for second best is never an option.

P. All the sequels/remakes/adaptations/rip-offs in movies nowadays, good or bad? More bad than good. I'm over it. Would rather originality.

Q. Would you rather be dirt poor and emotionally fulfilled in life or be rich beyond imagination and emotionally dissatisfied for life? Poor & fulfilled. I'd at least be happy.

R. Do you have any (secret) feelings of bigotry to any group of people? I don't think bigger try is the right word.

S. Would you rather be the only person in the world that can read minds or have everyone else in the world be able to read minds except for your own? Only girl in the world with that ability.

T. If everyone in the world would automatically only know one language, which language would you choose? French because it's such a beautiful language.

U. If you were old enough and not in a situation where it would be inappropriate, would you sleep with one of your (past) school teachers/professors? Yes. Mr. Hernandez.

V. A world without religion, good, bad, neutral? Bad. Terrible. Awful.

W. The men's rights movement, legitimate cause or laughable, and why? Laughable and ridiculous. The one group of people who have never been disenfranchised or under represented has been men, especially White men. There is no real movement.

X. You can eliminate one of your five senses to substantially strengthen the others, which one and would you do it? I wouldn't do it. But if I had to chose, I'm going with the sense of smell.

Y. Do looks mean anything to you? Don't lie, could you fall in love with someone you thought was ugly? Looks mean something to everyone. Those who say otherwise are lying through their teeth. I couldn't fall in love with someone I wasn't attracted to.

Z. Can you understand the mindset and logic used by the opposite spiritual opinion? An atheist understanding the belief in a higher power and vice versa. I cannot. I'm perplexed by it. If you do not believe in God, what is this higher being you speak of? That's crazy to me.

#30in30: You Know How Much I Love These

1: When you have a container of Neapolitan ice cream, what flavor do you leave for last? Chocolate, always.
2: Would you rather be caught in a thunderstorm without an umbrella or a snowstorm without boots? Snowstorm. Hate to be caught in the rain unprepared.
3: Let's say you have access to a time machine, but it can only go either backward or forward. One or the other. Which do you choose and where do you go? Backwards...if only to have one last conversation with my Dad.
4: If you could choose to have any superpower ever, what would you pick? I would want to read minds. That would be dope.
5: Tomorrow morning, you wake up in the body of a celebrity, like in a '90s body-swap movie. Who is it? How do they react to your life? What do you do when you're "them"? Would you choose to switch back? Beyonce'. My reaction would be utter ridiculousness. I would want to perform in from of millions. I would switch back after a week or so.
6: Any allergies? Penicillin and shrimps unfortunately.
7: What would you be more embarrassed to buy: sex toys or adult diapers? Adult diapers. Ewww...
8: Did you get enough sleep last night?Surprisingly yes, I did.
9: You're the sole witness to a Mafia murder. Witness protection has to set you up with a whole new life in a totally new country. You have to leave everything behind, but you can pick where you move to. Where do you go? Ok, being in Witsec would suck big, hairy monkey balls for many reasons. But, if I was forced to choose either New York (if I had to stay stateside) or Mykonos, Greece (if I could leave the US).
10: If you could star in a biopic about any famous person ever, who would it be?Oprah. Her life story will play well on the big screen.
11: What's the biggest animal you've ever killed? Bugs count. A spider I guess.
12: Would you rather have millions of dollars but always feel nauseous when you go outside, or be dirt poor forever but never get sick again in your life? I would take the money. Because I could build an awesome estate that I'd never have to leave.
13: A wizard offers you immortality in exchange for your two front teeth. Do you take it? Nope. We are not meant to be immortal.
14: Could you win the Hunger Games? I would fight tooth and nail to win. When surviving is your only choice, nothing else matters.
15: What was your favorite Halloween costume as a kid? How about as a teen/adult?As a kid, I was Rainbow Brite. As a teen, I was Chilli of TLC.
16: Do you bite your nails? Yes. Horrible habit to break too.
17: What was the first movie you remember seeing in the theater? "Annie."
18: Do you prefer music with male or female vocalists? I do not have a preference actually. I prefer that they be vocally talented though.
19: You and the love of your life are having a baby, and you get to choose the name! There's only one catch: your partner INSISTS that it be the name of a place, real or fictional. What do you name your baby? Girl: Kashi; Boy: Kingston.
20: If you could reboot or remake any movie, what would it be and who would you cast? I'm not necessarily a fan of remakes. But, I guess I would pick "School Daze." I would cast Tristan Wilds & Kyla Pratt as leads, Idris Elba as the dean of the school.
21: If you could automatically know how to speak any language or play any instrument, which would you choose? Language Italian; Instrument, the piano.
22: For you, would getting amnesia be a good thing? Negative. That would be so horrible.
23: If you curse loudly and then realize that there are children nearby, what is your reaction? I cringe & apologize.
24: Of what animal are you most afraid? Snakes.
25: Pizza or oral sex? Oral sex followed by pizza.Ha!
26: Without looking them up, can you explain the rules of football? How about Quidditch? What do you think that says about you? I'm sure I can since I am a football fan & an avid Harry Potter fan as well. I think it shows how awesome a woman like me is & that I'm highly versed in a variety of topics.
27: You're in the car, switching channels on the radio when you hear a song that makes you go "OH SHIT, THAT'S MY JAM!" What song is it? Jay-Z "I Just Wanna Love You"
28: Have you ever paid to see a Step Up movie? If not, how much would someone have to pay YOU to see a Step Up movie? Nope. Past the first one, someone would have to pay me at least $50 to watch it.
29: If you were being executed tonight, what would you choose for your last meal? Steak, grilled shrimp, loaded potatoes, Strawberry martini, and for dessert vanilla bean cheesecake with chocolate sauce & fresh strawberries.
30: Have you ever bought an item of clothing because it reminded you of something a fictional character would wear? Yes.
31: If you were invisible for a day, what would you do? Spy on people I know & freak them out by moving things.
32: Have you ever been punched in the face? Nope.
33: How do you take your ramen noodles? I don't because I don't eat that.
34: Do you ever rehearse or plan conversations before you actually have them? When I'm emotional about an issue, I do.
35: How much black do you wear on a regular basis (not counting funerals)? A moderate amount.
36: Do you have any tattoos? Do you want any? Yep & I want more.
37: If someone offered you a free pet snake, would you take it? It's not dangerous or really big or anything. They're just moving to a place that doesn't allow pets. Hell. No.
38: Do you know how to pronounce the word "pinochle"? Sure do.
39: Can you think of anything more boring than birdwatching? Golf and baseball.
40: Are you better with numbers or words? Words. Definitely.
41: At the movies, do you stay for the credits? In general, no. But if I need to know the name of an actor or song, I do.
42: Is morality universal or relative? I believe it is more relative because the whole world does not value the same morals.
43: Let's say you're getting married to someone you absolutely adore. The only catch is that you met them through a Craigslist hookup ad that was supposed to be just for one night of casual sex. Would you tell your friends how you and your fiance met? Not at all. Because our story is ours. I don't have to share that with anyone. All they need to know is that I'm in love & getting married.
44: What's the worst name you've ever been called? A bitch.
45: Would you eat human flesh if it had been harvested and prepared humanely? (Say, from someone brain-dead who had marked him or herself down as an organ donor - same difference, right?) Negative.
46: At what age did you stop believing in Santa? Alternately, if you never believed in Santa, did you ever ruin Santa for anyone else? I do not remember my exact age. But, I know I was young and I caught my Mom wrapping gifts. So, the jig was up. I have never ruined it for anyone.
47: Do you get along better with old people or little kids? Both. But since I have to choose, I'll say little kids.
48: If you had to choose, would you rather become a nun/monk or a drug dealer? A nun. Which would suck majorly. For reasons.
49: What's your best bodily feature, objectively speaking? Since both are equally amazing, I'll say it's a tie between my brain and my breasts.
50: Who is your favorite late night talk show host? I don't have one.

It's That Time Again...

1: Apart from blogging, what do you like to do in your spare time? Reading and talking/laughing with my Love & hanging with my family.
2: Name a favorite of each: food, drink, color. Pasta, Strawberry Martini, Cerulean.
3: If you married rich and your spouse gave you $100,000 a week, what would you spend it on? Property...and shoes :)
4: Name a favorite of each: book, movie, tv show. "The Five People You Meet In Heaven," "Brown Sugar," The Wire.
5: If you were given the opportunity to spend 48 hours with absolutely anyone (living or dead), who would you spend it with and what would you do? My Dad & we would just talk and laugh.
6: Name a LEAST favorite of each: food, drink, color. Liver, Jack & Coke, Green.
7: What do you spend most of your money on? My hobbies which include music, reading & shoes.
8: What kind of underwear do you prefer wearing? Boyshorts.
9: Name a LEAST favorite of each: book, movie, tv show. The 50 Shades trilogy, Darkness, House.
10: If you were sat on a plane beside your favorite celebrity, what would you do? After talking myself into a clam state, I would strike up a conversation about their art. Tell him how much I appreciate his work.
11: What is the strangest thing you have in your room? (You are not allowed to explain why you own it.) A Build-A-Bear.
12: What is a weird habit you have, or people have told you have. (Weird, not bad. No nail biting or any of that nonsense.) I prefer to be in the dark.
13: What would you consider to be the biggest insult to yourself? That I'm not intelligent.
14: What are five things you absolutely have to have in your dream house? Open floor plan, spacious master suite, a closet to die for, chef's kitchen, & big backyard.
15: If you could be reincarnated as any animal, which would you chose and why? A hummingbird. Because they are little and cute and can go anywhere whenever they want.
16: Which band (current or past) would you want to go on tour* with? (*Travel with, not preform with.) New Edition.
17: Name a favorite of each: band, album, song. New Edition, "Reasonable Doubt," "Happy Feelings"
18: Why is your favorite band your favorite? I fell for them as a kid. They were adorable little brown boys who could sing. I was sold.
19: How many concerts have you attended? Which was your favorite? Least favorite? If none, who do you want to see live the most? Whew, hard question. Let's say 100 give or take a few. My favorite is a tie between the Watch the Throne tour and Essence the year Lauryn Hill performed. Least fave: was Essence the year MJB was so high and so drunk and she was awful.
20: What is one of your favorite song lyrics? (Who is it by?)"Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven. Your smile could heal a million souls. Your love completes my existence. You're the other half that makes me whole. You're the only other half that makes me whole." - Amel Larrieux "Make Me Whole"
21: Who do you love? My family, my Love, my friends.
22: What band merch do you own? If any, whose is it and when did you get it? If none, whose do you wish you owned? Outside of music, I am not into band merchandise.
23: How big is your heart? The capacity of it is gargantuan.
24: How did you learn of the band that is currently your favorite?Through my Dad.

It's These FIVE Things...

I love questionnaires and quizzes. I absolutely love when they are particularly unusual. Those are the most interesting to me. When I saw this one, I had to do it and share. I really enjoyed it. Anyway, hope you guys enjoy reading my five things!

1. 5 basic facts about you - I love my family, I live for music, I like fish, I read exceptionally fast & I need more sleep.

2. 5 not-so-basic facts about you - I don't often sleep very well, I need to express myself more, I think too much which makes it hard to sleep at night, my imagination is over active & I still hate the Thriller video.

3. 5 ways you break the ice - Introduce myself, tell a joke, talk about music, ask about the other person, & smile.

4. 5 signs that you’re into someone - I laugh a lot, flirt with him, smile when I think of him, light up when he calls, & cannot wait to hear his voice.

5. 5 signs that you’re NOT into someone - Arms folded, don't flirt, fake smiles, short conversations & I just don't pay attention.

6. 5 things you do when you’re bored - Read, sleep, listen to music, surf the web, watch SATC or The Wire.

7. 5 things that make you hyper - Great conversations, wonderful music, amazing poetry, laughing kids, & HIM.

8. 5 things you’re known for - My wit, my intelligence, being a great listener, giving good advice & (as per my nephews/nieces) great hugs!

9. 5 things you want to do - Travel, write more, learn another language, get married & become a Mom.

10. 5 things you’ll never do - Bungee jump, drink tequila again, get an abortion, vote Republican, & eat sushi.

11. 5 good things about you - (As per my cousin) I'm extremely smart, a great listener, a wonderful writer, I have a pretty smile and the best pair of chi-chi'cs in America (lol).

12. 5 bad things about you - I worry a lot, I hate to cry especially in front of people, I am very hard on myself, I have high expectations of people, & I can be bossy.

13. 5 ways to make you cry - Talk about my Dad, attack me personally, those stupid Sarah Maclahan ASPCA commercials, sappy movies & beautiful words.

14. 5 ways to win your heart - Be funny, be intelligent, love your family, love music & be socially aware!

15. 5 things you need to say - "Baby, I love you," "Get your tubes tied, Idiot," "I don't care," "I can't wait to kiss you," & "I wish you would get some help.

So Difficult

I am a talker. I love words and conversations. But sometimes it's hard to find the words and formulate the sentences. It's not because I don't know what I want to say or ask. It has more to do with the fact that I know that once it's said it can't be unsaid. Once I speak, I give power to my words. It's taken me a long time to truly grasp that concept. I'm more careful with my words.

I've also learned that the "Hardest thing to say is usually worth saying." (via @KarenCivil) It's very true. We've all had those difficult conversations filled with questions who's answers could crush us. When your heart's involved, the words carry much weight. I am also a worrywart. I think and rethink about what I want to say and how I want to say it before I ever do. It's just very important to me.

I also believe that all these difficult conversations can lead to better, more fulfilled lives. People have to get through them to get through life. It's never easy during the process. But the end result is always worth it. Because, at least, now you know. Now, you can decide what comes next. For some that means to stay and fight. For others, it means to cut your loses and run. Either way, a decision can be made. Difficult situations are a part of life. How you respond to them determines who you are. For that reason alone, I take them on. I need to grow. This is the only way, by going through.

25 Unusual Questions

1. The person I like and why I like them. - The person I like/love is Kristopher. And the reasons I like him are endless. I like the way he says my name or calls me baby and how big his heart is. The way he laughs makes me smile, I'm even comforted by the way he snores. He's my best friend. I like the many ways we are alike and the ways we are different.
2. A famous person i’ve been compared to. - When I was a kid, my little cousin thought that Rudy & I were the same person.
3. 5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex. - Same sex- Talk too much, mean girl mentality, judgemental, scandalous, & loud. Opposite- Game playing, bullshitting, hard to read, one word answers & group think mentality.
4. The best thing that has happened to me this week. - The conversation he & I had about the beginning of our relationship.
5. Weird things I do when I’m alone. - Keep the a/c on even when I'm freezing bc I hate to be hot.
6. How I'd spend ten thousand bucks. - I'd be absolutely careless with it. I'd take us on a trip overseas.
7. Things I like and things I don’t like about the way I look. - Likes: Smile, breasts, legs, curves Dislikes: hate my nose ugh, butt,
8. My last night out in detail. - It was a baby shower with old friends so a great time was had by all.
9. Something that makes me sad when I think about it. - Losing 3 important people.
10. Something I’ve lied about. - In the past, my age and name.
11. Would I rather be stranded on a desert island with someone I love for ten years or someone I hate for a month? explain why. - This one's easy, someone I love. I'd rather be with a person I actually like because it would make the time pass quicker. When you're with the one you love, time doesn't really exist.
12. Something I’m currently worrying about. - My future.
13. One person from tumblr I'd throw off a cliff, one I’d marry and one I’d fuck. - I don't know about the first one but I'd marry & fuck the same person...HIM...Kris ;-)
14. Something I do without realising. - Apparently I moan...a lot.
15. Lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood. - "Can I get a refill? Can I get a refill? Can I get a reeeeeeeeeeefill? Feeling like a conversational lush Cause I don’t know how much is too much."
16. A drunken story. - "Drank a bunch of clear liquor all day at a party. Woke up, didn't recognize the room I was in & immediately thought someone had kidnapped me. But I was safe in the house with my cousins and friends."
17. Something I regret. - Not having the chance to say goodbye.
18. Post a picture of myself. - There's one on the side.
19. Longest relationship and who it was with. - Like 4 years. It was with the boy next door.
20. Press ctrl v and post. - inbtweenthoughts.blogspot.com
21. ost a bit of my last IM convo. - "What you doing? Laundry & blogging. What you blogging about?"
22. 5 things I want to change. - My address, my name, my occupation, my hair, my nail polish.
23. Your view on being tumblr famous. - It's superficial & nothing I aspire to.
24. Someone I’d like to be for a day and why. - Oprah because she has money & power & people listen when she speaks.
25. 5 things within touching distance. - Evo, remote, shoes, glass of H²O, picture.

Tag, You're It!!

It's a Tag game. I saw this on another blog. It looked very interesting. So I wanted to try it here.

So, here are the rules:
You must post the rules.
Post eleven fun facts about yourself on the blog post.
Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and then create eleven new questions to ask the people you've been tagged.
Comment below to let me know of you're going to participate in this Tag game! Ok here goes:

*11 Facts About Me*

1. I'm so bossy. I'm the oldest so it comes with the territory.
2. I love chocolate. Like for real.
3. I hate my nose. I blame my Dad, it's his nose. Lol.
4. Until I was about 29, the thought of childbirth freaked me out completely.
5. I have extra bones in my foot. It's hereditary.
6. I am lightweight obsessed with the letter K, the color purple and the number 3.
7. I love grapes but hate grape flavored food.
8. I want to go to San Fran just to ride the streetcars up & down the hills.
9. I have a strange sense of humor but it works.
10. I love to use the close captions on the tv. I'd rather read than watch tv.
11. I find myself somewhat consumed by one person and that makes me a little anti-social. But I'm more than ok with that.

*Ariel's Questions*

1. What CD is currently in your CD Player? "Watch The Throne"

2. When was the last time you cried and why? This past weekend. And, sometimes you just need to release some tears.

3. What is your favorite book? "The Enormous Egg"

4. Where is your favorite place to shop online? Amazon.

5. What is your astrological sign? Sagittarius.

6. What is your dream job? Writer.

7. If you could live anywhere, where would it be? San Diego.

8. Name five of your favorite make up products (brand, color, etc). I don't wear a lot of makeup, but I dig shadows by Mac, mascara by CoverGirl, lip glosses by Avon, & liners by Sephora.

9. What is your favorite running shoe? Nike

10. What is your current workout regimen? I need to find some motivation & join a gym. Seriously.

11. What is your favorite reality TV show? I love Bethenny.

*Michelle's Questions*

1. Where did you grow up? New Orleans, La.

2. What was your favorite subject in school? English, Spanish & Yearbook.

3. Do you have an emergency savings fund? Yep.

4. What’s your favorite way to spend free time? Spending it with HIM.

5. MTV or BET? IF I have to choose, BET just for The Game.

6. Do you live in a house or an apartment? Apartment (for now).

7. What’s your favorite snack? Chocolate Covered Pretzels.

8. Potatoes or rice? Potatoes

9. What’s your favorite type of shoe? Flats & platforms.

10. Whose your favorite actress or female actor? Julia Roberts & Sanaa Lathan.

11. Favorite male actor? Nicholas Cage & John Travolta.

*Kiki J's Questions*

1. What is the name of your favorite restaurant? *

2. First celebrity crush?

3. Worst subject in high school? Math

4. You have one hour before an event and you have everything you need but shoes, what is your last minute go-to shoe store? Shoe-nami.

5. Hoops, studs or big bold earrings? Hoops.

6. Spring or Fall? Fall.

7. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes/arms.

8. You have the weekend all to yourself, what are your plans? Spa pedicure, read, write, nap.

9. You've won an all expense paid vacation for one, where would you go? Santorini, Greece.

10. If you had the choice to choose to go back to school for free or travel the world for free, which would you take? Travel the world.

11. Last but not least, what is your dream job? Writing novels while being a stay at home mom.

And, here are my questions. Enjoy.
1. Something you do when you're alone.
2. Your favorite article of clothing.
3. Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?
4. What was your favorite movie as a kid?
5. Are you living the life you envisioned for yourself as a child?
6. Is there something you want to say to someone but are afraid of the outcome? If yes, tell me.
7. Worst movie you've seen this year?
8. Who do you think will win the GOP nomination, Santorum, Romney, Gingrich, or Paul?
9. Can you survive a day without your cell? If so, is it torturous?
10. Tell me about your best date.
11. What do you love about blogging?

A 2012 Questionnaire

1. Name two things you would NOT tolerate in a relationship. *Cheating & Abuse*
2. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?*G*
3. When was the last time you snuck out? *It's been a really long time since I had to*
4. Have you ever smoked? *Yep*
5. Do you dream in black and white or color? *Both*
6. Have you ever been in love? *Yes*
7. Do you drink ginger ale when you are sick? *No, only when I fly*
8. Name one career you would never consider and explain why. *Cop. I just don't have the stomach for it and guns scare me*
9. What is your favorite film? *It's a tie between Annie/Grease/love jones/My Best Friend's Wedding*
10. Which family member are you closest to and why? *Ty. She's my cousin, best friend, oldest friend, and we've been through everything together*
11. Describe your most significant first impression. *I was weary of a certain guy because of something silly. It just goes to show that you can never judge a book by its cover or a person by a screen name*
12. Describe your ex in five words. *Decent guy for someone else*
13. What, if any, medical issues run in your family? *Breast Cancer*
14. When was the last wedding you went to? *The Butler wedding 7/17/2010*
15. If you got to choose how you’d die, how would you want to go? *In my sleep and without any pain*
16. Do you wish on wishbones? *I've never done this but I should*
17. Are you a jealous person? *Nope*
18. What is the current taste in your mouth? *Earl grey tea*
19. When was the last time you smoked, if ever? *It's been years...at least 10*
20. Do you get distracted easily? *Sometimes*
21. What was the last thing to upset you? *Some parts in "Red Tails"*
22. Do you ever wear ties? *Not normally but I have before*
23. What is the closest yellow object to you? *My panties*
24. If your significant other ever hit you, how would you react? *Violently. I believe if you hit me, then I will hit you and (especially if its a man) I will call the police*
25. What are you craving right now? *HIM*
26. Tell one random fact about the last person you spoke with. *He has this way of making my voice get really light and soft*
27.Do you prefer movies at home or in a theater? *At home so I can be as comfortable in my various stages of undress*
28. What is one reason why someone should not fall in love with you? *I'm already deeply in love so my heart isn't available*
29. Do you have any addictions? *Music, polish, the color grey and my Love*.
30. Is your most significant relationship over? *Of course not, I'm just getting deep into it*
31. When are you at your happiest? Saddest? *When I'm talking to HIM. Late at night/early in the morning when I'm in a super sappy mood*
32. Would you ever want to be a cop? *Not even if my life depended on it*
33. What are you most self-conscious about? *My tummy*
34. Is the human race predictable? *Mostly, yes. But sometimes I am surprised*
35. Explain your spiritual beliefs.*I believe in God, Jesus and religion. I have less faith in preachers and mega churches*
36. How did you get your last bruise? *Hit my leg on coffee table*
37. Do you have competition for the person you like? *Negative*
38. Where were you yesterday at 7:00 p.m.? *Home talking to my Love*
39. Your exact thought right now? *Almost done with this*
40. The first word you think of after reading this. *Oranges*

Questionnaire Time (Fin)

66. If you could meet anyone on this earth, alive or dead, who would it be? *
Malcolm X"

67. What do you think about most? *My future.*

68. What does your latest received text message from say? *"Hurry up and go home baby.*

69. Ever had a poem or song written about you? *Yep.*

70. Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? *In front of ;-) *

71. What does your URL mean? *I stay in my head a lot. Loads of random thoughts so, in between them, I blog.*

72. Do you have a collection of anything? *Cd's and keychains.*

73. Are you happy with the person you've become? *Yes but there's so much more for me to become.*

74. Choose: East Coast or West Coast? *That's hard. I'm torn. West Coast to the weather, East Coast for the scenery.*

75. Define: Art. *It is the beautiful and the ugliness that makes us feel something.*

76. Long distance relationships? *Only to this man I love :-) *

77. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? *My Kindle case is hot pink.*

78. If you could choose any era to live in what would it be and why? *The 40's seem interesting.*

79. Do you believe in heaven/hell? *Sure do.*

80. What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? *Anything by New Edition.*

81. In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? *Communication is key. Everything else will flow from there.*

82. What would you want to be written on your tombstone? *The woman who loved hard, laughed harder and wrote the things we all were thinking. Beloved Wife, Mother, Daughter, Sister, Aunt, Friend.*

83. What is your favorite word? *Euphonious.*

84. Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: heart. *Love.*

85. What is a saying you say a lot? *You know?*

86. Basic question: what's your favorite color/colors? *Cerulean and Lilac*

87. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do? *I scream, then run like hell.*

88. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? *Read minds.*

89. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? *Oooh. August 14, 2003.*

90. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? *I would def erase the entire summer of 2005.*

91. You have the opportunity to meet the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? *Easy choice, Jay-Z.*

92. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? *Fiji with HIM.*

93. Do you have any relatives in jail? *None I can think of at the moment.*

94. Have you ever thrown up in the car? *Ugh yes.*

95. Ever been on a plane? Longest plane ride ever? *Yes and about 4 hours.*

96. If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? *Read more books, watch less reality tv, live life more outside than inside and love each other better.*

97. What is/are your favorite quote/s? *Too many to name.*

98. You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
*a) Yes I would. b) I spent it with my loved ones. c) I'd be a little afraid but I would pray and give it to God.*

99. Best feeling ever? *Being told "I Love You."*

100. Favorite cartoon as an adult? *Daría hands down.*

Questionnaire Time (Part Tres)

46. Name something you have to do tomorrow? *Laundry.*

47. Last person you cried in front of? *My Mom.*

48. Is there someone you will never forget? *Yes.*

49. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? *I know he is.*

50. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? *Def not this quiz! Laying in his arms, kissing him.*

51. Are you over your past? *Thankfully yes.*

52. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? *Apology: yes. Gifts: no.*

53. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? *Lol yes.*

54. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? *Of course.*

55. Who do you have texts from? *My Love, brother, cousin, sisters, Mom, Aunt, Best Friends.*

56. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? *His loss cause she could never be me.*
57. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? *Sure.*

58. Who’s in your profile picture with you? *Just Moi.*

59. Ever kissed under fireworks? *Yes.*

60. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? *Yep.*

61. Are you more like your mom or your dad? *I think more like my Dad.*

62. What is your favorite season? *Autumn.*

63. Do you ever want to get married? *Yes.*

64. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? *An interesting mix of both.*

65. Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? *Life on other planets is a def.*

Questionnaire Time (Part Deux)

26. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? *My Man!*

27. Do you get a lot of colds? *Sinus*

28. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? *I think Target.*

29. Does anyone hate you? *I hope not.*

30. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? *Nope.*

31. Do you like watching scary movies? *Negative.*

32. Do you want your tongue pierced? *Nope...but I do want other body parts pierced.*

33. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? *1998 was rough.*

34. Did you have a dream last night? *Yes, a very weird one.*

35. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? *This morning.*

36. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? *Yes.*

37. Do you think someone has feelings for you? *The only person who matters...yes, my Love.*

38. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? *He better be! Ha!*

39. Did you wake up cranky? *I most definitely did not.*

40. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? *All the time...especially the really good things.*

41. Are you good at hiding your feelings? *When I want/need to.*

42. How’s your heart? *It's beautiful and secure and protected and loving and beating strongly.*

43. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? *Ugh, yes.*

44. Are your toenails painted pink? *Yes. Hot pink...well magenta to be exact.*
45. How do you look right now? *Cute.*