Rihanna. Yes, it's true. I like her. But, this has more to do with her online personality, fly ass fashion sense and overall don't give a f attitude. I can honestly say that some of her music is catchy. The beats are always on point. As are the lyrics. Her vocals still leave much to be desired. As do her less than stellar dance moves. Besides all of that, she has somehow managed to turn herself into a rockstar. She is always on the blogs, in the magazines and the topic of conversation.
She has am amazing body. She knows what works for her fashion wise. She can rock almost any hair color. She's been black, brown, red and blond. The black has always been her best look. I really became a fan after following her on Twitter. She seems to just not care. She is young, rich and famous. And she is enjoying the hell out of it. I think that's what o like the most about her. She just seems like a fun girl. So, this is my Sunday confession. I'm a closeted Rihanna fan. Sue me.
I've never been a jealous hearted person. I can honestly say that I'm too caught up in my own things to be that worried. I have my own thoughts, desires, wants and needs. I've never coveted anothers anything. What's for me is for me. I don't get how a person could be happy worrying about someone elses life. Jealousy and envy are ugly traits. They make a person's soul just as ugly. Besides, green is not a shade that I look good in.
It's easy to believe that a person's life is as beautiful as it appears. But I know the truth. People have much more going on under the surface. I have my own ideas and plans for my life. What I want in a husband, what kind of mother I will be, the home I want to build for my family, the type of author I am writing myself into. All of those things are for me and me alone. I don't share all of that with many because its so dear to me. I don't owe anyone an explanation for what I want or why. It's just what I'm determined to have for my family and I. I'm in my early 30's and I'm just now in a place where I feel ready for the life I've dreamed of. I'm mature enough to know that it wasn't for me in my early 20's.
Jealous is an ugly personality trait. I don't get people who possess it. Nor do I see it as healthy. It's a sad way to live life. Well, if you can even deem it living. I don't. I only want what's for me. My story is just unfolding. I am too busy working on me and my future to envy another's possessions. That's pure craziness to me. I can't comprehend that nor will I try. Jealous and envy are traits everyone should rid themselves of. I'm sure it will make life that much better.
Sarcasm is a very unique personality trait. Everyone does not possess it. Nor does everyone use it correctly. It is one of the many things I love about myself. I can be very sarcastic. It's the reason why the MTV cartoon "Daria" was such a favorite of mine. It's inherently a part of me. But, the older I get, I begin to wonder if it's too much. I think my sarcastic nature can be misconstrued by some.
There are things I say that mean no harm but are often taken that way. The fact is I'm a sarcastic person. I call it like I see it. I don't think I should have to sugarcoat things for adults. We are all grown ups so we should all be able to take it. But clearly that isn't the case with everyone. I'm the person who will give you an opinion if you ask for it. I've toned down my urge to offer it without being asked as the years have gone by. Sarcastic people are my kind of people. Simply because I get them. I don't take offense because I know it's harmless. Every one isn't like me though. This much I know to be true.
I am well aware that my tone of voice can be very blunt. That's the Sagittarius in me. I've soften some on that as well. It is not my intent, for the most part, to cut anyone down with my words. (If you're on my bad side, that's another story.) I wonder if my delivery could be better, my words sweeter or my tone lighter. I worry that I may unintentionally hurt someone I love dearly. So, in an effort to stop these thoughts, I'm thinking more before I speak. I want my words to only help. I don't want to be the one who cuts others down with my words. As a writer, I know how important words are. It's one of things I'm constantly working on daily. What can I say? I'm a work in progress! Watch me work!
