Not The Right One

Last night I was watching BET's "The Game" while attempting to go to sleep. I wasn't feeling that well. And, while I would normally be all into the show, my mind was elsewhere. So, I was dvr'ing it to watch later. Until I heard Jason Pitts utter the words above. I felt like I had been shot. I sat straight up and had to rewind it because I didn't really know what led to such an honest and hurtful admission. I watched that scene at least three times. Watched as Chardonnay's heart broke and face cracked as her husband said those words to her. How could he?? How do you fall in love with a woman, marry her, plan your future with her, re-propose, give her a big fancy wedding only to humiliate her in front of everyone?? I will never understand the mindframe of a man who is supposedly in love with a woman doing anything to hurt her. Ever. 

But, then I got to thinking about this situation. If you really love someone, you should want the best for them. Even if that means that they aren't with you. I've spent a lot of time thinking since my last breakup about love. I've seriously doubted his love for me on many late nights. I felt as if he didn't love me enough to stay. And, for far too long, that thought killed me. It made me feel less than and not worthy of love because the man I loved left me. The absence of his love filled me with self-doubt. And, honestly, I haven't worked my way totally through it. Even after the breakup, he would (and still does) compliment me and I find it hard to believe him. Hearing that I'm a good woman or a great person or that I'm pretty or sexy or intelligent doesn't have the same appeal as it did before. But, then I had an epiphany. Whatever his reasons for leaving, whether I think they were credible or not, were his own. And, the reality is, he no longer thought I was the right woman for him. In hindsight, I'm thankful for him. Because it could've been worse. We could've been married with kids. This way, I was the only one hurt. I didn't think I would survive but I did. Getting back to "The Game," I hope this heartbreak for Chardonnay leads her to the man she is supposed to spend the rest of her life with. Hell, I hope the same thing for me as well. 

My "The Game" Review

"The Game" premiered last night. And only one word can fully describe it: Whoa!!! It was everything and nothing. It was great and it was not so great. But, the fan in me was ultimately pleased to see the cast back on tv...even if its on BET. The producers made a huge change from the show being a comedy with some drama to a dramedy with some comedy. This will take some people time to get used to. Me, not so much.

There were loads of great points to last night's premiere. Love that Derwin is the new it guy. Love him and Girl Melanie @ the photo shoot. Love Tasha Mack getting her Stella on with Terrence J. Jason being disgruntled is quite funny to see play out. I wonder if he's gonna transition to commentating once he's through with football. The new houses are all great. Malik's house is ridiculously extravagant as it should be since he's such a cliche'. Tee Tee finally manning up to Malik and getting his own life is way overdue. Kelly's reality show is so 2011. I love that aspect since the world is so focused on the lives of celebrities. Tasha and Dante's relationship is def a good look. I like Terrence J. This new dark Malik is gonna take some getting used to. I am intrigued though.

I, however, did not love some things. Med School giving up med school to be the wife of a baller seems silly. Especially since they don't have any kids (DJ has a Mom & I'm sure he isn't with them 24/7). Malik treating Tee Tee like dirt and sleeping with his girl was not a good look. Neither is his affair with his boss' wife. Tasha Mack and Kelly still beefing two years later is wack. As is the fact that Tasha would be scared of Kelly. It's not believable or realistic to me. Tasha smoking a Black & Mild was just all sorts of wrong. The new, older Brit Brat is no bueno. the show was only gone two years and they've aged her at least 5. This bitter, trashy Kelly is def a lot to adjust to. I understand why but I'm not sold on it.

Overall, I am hapy that the show is back. And, apparently so are 7.7 million other people since that's how many of us watched the premiere. Those are awesome numbers. I hope that the numbers stay up. I cannot wait to watch what happens this season week by week. Will Melanie tell Derwin the truth? Will they get DJ another DNA test? What will happen between Melanie and Janay? Melanie and Derwin? Will Tasha and Dante make it? Who else will Malik mess over? Will his boss find out about the affair? Will Tee Tee blow the whistle on the affair? Will Kelly stop being so bitter? Will Jason and Kelly get back together? I swear I have so many questions going forward into the season. I have a feeling that it will get better and better. In the words of Tasha Mack, "Game on, b**ches!!!"

Get Into It: "The Game"

Today is the day. "The Game" is finally back on tv. Thanks to BET and its staff. Season four premieres tonight at 8pm. And, I cannot wait!! I have read some spoilers already. I'm interesting in seeing how things will play out this season. I am still Team Girl Melanie all day. I love every character on this show and have since the first episode. I wanna see how te writers and directors will turn Atlanta into "San Diego." Make sure you guys get into "The Game" tonight and weekly on BET. Check your local listings!