Ladies Love Lyrics: Songs In My Head

I'm in a mood. A bad one. So, as per the usual, music is needed. Here are a few songs that have been played tonight. Get into them and the lyrics. 

"Just because I love you

Doesn't mean I don't get mad
It just means I won't stay mad for long
Just because I love you
Doesn't mean I don't have bad days
Sometimes I wanna be alone
Just because I love you
Doesn't mean I don't want that
I am a human being with feelings
Oh, let me get this straight
You got an attitude 'cause I don't wanna do things your way
I can't believe this, I don't need this
I'm a find somebody else who'll let me
And I'm pretty when I don't look my best
And I don't feel like I gotta have an S on my chest
Have an S on my chest
Yes yes, on my chest
I can't be supa all the time

Sup so so supa
Sup so so supa

Sup so so, sup so so, sup so so supa..."

"I was looking for a cure to pull me through
Try to decide which medicine to use
And every bottle has your name on the label
Doctor said you keep me stable
So now, I’m taking three a day to help me smile
They said I should wait and try it for a while
So I’ve been ignoring my symptoms
And the small print on the back of my prescription

What I’m gonna do is
Fever over 98, you hold me and my body shakes
See nobody told me, nobody told me
The side effects of you
Losing balance, falling down
Sleepless nights whenever you’re around
Nobody told me, nobody told me
The side effects of you
The side effects of you

I double checked the recommended dose
Cause recently my headaches getting worse
Sometimes every part of me is shaking
Is this the right pill that I’m taking."

"But when my tears dropped, where the hell were you?
It's okay, boy I've changed and I ain't been here waiting

So I won't pretend to feel bad for you
'Cause since you left I ain't cried since
And boy I like it that way

I can say I'm done in a million ways
But let's not beat around the bush
Let's cut to the chase
You changed, I changed but it's too late,
Now I'm so through, too cool, oh yeah
And if our love was a game, you just lost
You changed, I changed but it's too late

I know you hate to see this look on my face
I'm sure that you can see real clear a little lying goes a long way
And if you think I'd waste more tears, boy you're crazy
And maybe you should get yourself a minute, don't delay
But you let the ball drop, too bad for you

But it's okay, boy I'm straight, my whole life's amazing"

"You steady telling lies
I stayed and pacified
While I kept denying the truth
You always here and there
Finally I don't care
I'm going to keep it real with you

[Chorus]
Ain't no feeling like being free
When your mind's made up
And your hearts in the right place, yeah
Ain't no feeling like being free
When you've done all you could
But what's misunderstood
(It's all good, it's all good)
Ain't no feeling like being free
I'm like an eagle set free
And finally I'm looking out for me
Ain't no feeling like being free
Cause my mind's made up
And my heart is in the right place, yeah
Hold 'em up, wait a second
I got to get something off my chest
My happiness was our happiness, I lived and (breathed)
You and all your needs
Let me speak, it's best I do what's best for me
Now ladies, (ladies)
I got my mind back
I been there and done that (no looking back no)
Oh, this time is for me
If you been doing you
I'm going to do me
I'm free"

Rain is Needed to Appreciate Rainbows

Sometimes I get into these moods that I can't shake. I don't like it at all. I think it comes with the territory of being a creative person. Writers can be some of the most tortured people. We're inside of our heads a lot. It's hard to stop that habit because it is inherently a piece of our personality. Even before I knew that writing was my passion, I contemplated everything a lot. Let me just say, I was a very interesting, serious kid. Back then, I didn't know why I was that way. I didn't know that worrying so much then would cause me so much headache later in life. I just knew this is who I was. The little girl who thought about every possibility. The rain today has promptly sparked this mood. Getting caught in it definitely did not help. Being cold and wet is never a good combination, not even on a good day.



That little girl grew into a woman who's now extremely conscious of everything. I think about what I say and how I say it often. I play out every possible scenario in my mind beforehand. When I'm overcome by a solemn mood, it's hard to shake. I'm always wondering about my level of happiness and how much of it do I inflict on others. Like does my presence alone make them happy? Now, I'm not concerned with people on general, just the ones I love. The way I am perceived and received means a lot to me. Sometimes it's easier for me to stay turned into myself because I know that I will and won't do. Things are easier that way. But that's not how life truly works. I'm just in a really weird mood and the rain is aiding it. I know I'll stop being overly sensitive and pensive soon. But these are some of my rambling thoughts that run through my brain when I'm feeling some kinda way. Every day isn't all sunshine and blue skies. I know that in order to appreciate the rainbow, I gotta put up with the rain. And, no matter how bad, weird my dy has been, the best part of my day is hearing the one voice that makes everything better. It's so crazy how one person can make me smile about everything. So instead of being all inside my head, I am now enjoying the rain and listening to the voice and smiling.

This blog post was brought to you by this terribly nasty weather here in Louisiana. Ugh, I'm over it!

Oh, Happy Day

"All I really want is to be happy!" - Mary J. Blige. This lady absolutely loves that lyric! I don't even know where to start. Things had gone awry for a few days. They've found a way back to normal. I love that. I prefer things to be happy and peaceful and calm. Laughing is chicken soup for my soul. Smiling makes my heart happy. I'm more me when things aren't stressful. I feel more centered and at peace. When there is drama or strife, I feel super extended and outside of myself. When there's an issue, I like to tackle it and get rid of it. If it lingers, it weighs down my spirits.



Today, I laughed and meant it. I had great conversations that eased my spirits. I said the words that were heavy in my heart and head. I pray that I said them with all the love I have in me. I sort of meditated this morning. I cleared my mind and heart. I proclaimed that I was going to get back to my happy place. And I did. I'm good. Spent the day with a smile on my face and love all around me. My prior posts weren't that happy I was told. And, to a degree, I agree. But, I blog about whatever I'm feeling. I wasn't feeling too happy the last few days. But, the moment has passed. All has been restored and renewed in my life and in my words. Today def was a good day. Hope your Sunday was as good as mine. Be happy, Loves!!

Woke Up On The Wrong Side Of The Bed

Last night was just plain awful. First, I couldn't sleep. Then, finally I could but it was bad. When peaceful sleep alludes you, what do you do? I spent last night tossing and turning. I had weird dreams that freaked me out. It just wasn't in the cards for me to sleep peacefully. This leads to me waking up on the proverbial wrong side of the bed. I'm in a bad mood clearly. I really hate it to. Especially because there is no one to blame. I just woke up this way. I'm still tired but can't sleep.

I have to find a way to shake this mood. I think I'll go get a pedicure. That always helps. This has not been the best week. I could definitely use a massage. My neck/shoulder area is tight. I know that's where tension is carried. I just really want to pull the comforter over my head, close my eyes and will myself to sleep for about 5 more hours. Maybe going back to sleep will help me wake up on the sunny side of the bed. If not, today will be bad. And, I've had enough bad for a lifetime. I'm rambling now because I'm sleep deprived, people. Anyway, going to attempt to jump into my plan of action. It's 10:32am and I really don't want my whole day to continue this way. Praying for a better night!

Right About Now...

When I started this blog, my purpose was just get myself writing again. It has since become about more than just writing for me. It's like an online journal of my life now. My happiness, my sadness, my trials and tribulations are all bared here on my blog for the world to see. Writing keeps me accountable for my actions. So with that thought in mind, I decided to blog about the things I cannot shake no matter how right and good my life is. These are the things I fear the most about the uncertainty of life and the unknown. I don't know if this is courageous or crazy at this point. But, in all honesty, it's what's on my heart at this moment. So I'm going with it. i think that maybe if I write about it, I can abolish or alleviate them. either way, here I go.

My Fears:

* Writing this blog right now.

* That despite my best efforts that I will end up alone. Being alone is my biggest deepest fear. I am sure this stems from the people I've loved the most leaving.

* That I will never live up to my full potential.

* That I will hurt those who love me and that I love.

* That I will squander my God given talent away.

* That I will never have children. I mean, I am almost 31 1/2 years old. I hear my biological clock ticking LOUDLY.

* And on the other side of the above, I have long feared that I would be a single parent. I'm guessing that is why I have been so diligent with birth control methods. I did not think I was strong enough to raise a child on my own.

* That in the end, none of it will matter anyway.

(this list will grow and shrink depending on my mood...which sucks by the way right now)