Ladies Love Lyrics: "Lose Myself"

I don't know why but for the last few days I've been more into lyrics than normal. The lyrics have been speaking to a deep space in my soul. I think some things I just needed to hear. The latest song that touched me was Marsha Ambrosius' "Lose Myself." I loved this song from my first listen. However, earlier today, the lyrics stood out to me. The idea of losing yourself to learn to love someone better is crazy but genius. Because sometimes you have to let go to hold on. The poet in me was pleased immensely by that. Just wanted to share what was on my musical mind with you guys.

(chorus) I had to lose myself so I could love you better
I had to lose myself, had to lose myself so I could
Love you better, lose myself in love
And that’s just the way it is?

Couldn’t tell me I was in love when I needed it
When all I ever wanted was love.
Should a told me I was worth receiving it
But all I ever wanted was love
There’s something awkward about the selflessness it
takes to give love and the good that it makes you!
True love can never really forsake you
But it took a little while just for me to see!

(chorus)

I had a paralyzing fear of facing failure
and I couldn’t love you perfectly with that fear in my head
So I perilously had to face the danger
So I could come back and love you whole instead
All of your soul I said!

My Year in Review: Myself

This has been a very interesting year. I can say that I'm better at the end of it than I was at the beginning of it. It was a learning year for me. 30 was a wonderful age for me.

I've become comfortable enough to voice my true feelings about certain things. Things I never have admitted to anyone before. I used to be very guarded before this year. I made myself believe that I was guarding my heart from any impending pain or hurt. In actuality, I was stopping myself from feeling anything. That part of the story is over.

I did not cut my hair once this year. That's a big deal for me. I am usually changing my hair style and color constantly. I let that go this year. My hair has grown to about shoulder-length and its still jet black. I can't say that this will be the case in 2011. It probably will be cut soon. But, the jet black will be here to stay. I love it a lot.

I've learned to let go and worry less in the latter half of 2010. Taking on the worries of others is something I've done all my life. I decided that it will not be a part of my future. I read so many great books this year. And, from them I learned so much. I think that is when I'm at my best, when I'm learning. I love to learn.

I let go of some toxic and dead friendships. Friends grow and that's what happened. I re-established some major friendships as well. I will not dwell on those who've lost me. I'm focused on strengthening the friendships that I hold dear to my heart. That's what's important to me. It's what I've learned this year. Life is for the living. And, I plan on living every moment to the fullest from here on out. This is my introspective year in review.