There comes a time when one feels the need to change things. I am definitely here now. I am at a career crossroads. From the time I was 8 years old, I knew that I wanted to be a lawyer. I never changed my mind all the way through college. I never doubted what I wanted or who I wanted to be. Then I graduated and things shifted. My love for the law is not as intense as it once was. I've been kinda just living but not really existing when it comes to working. The more I've thought about it, the more I've been wanting to go back to school. I no longer want to further my Political Science degree. I still enjoy politics and the law. I just don't want that to be my life's work.
After having a deep conversation with my Love, he said something that moved me. He suggested teaching. He knows how much I love reading, writing, and my subconscious talent of correcting written works. It just makes sense. It's also crazy because two different friends suggested the same thing earlier this summer. The thought scares and excites me. Being an educator never crossed my mind. I've never seen myself in that role. But, now, that thought seems more tangible than ever. I think I could do it and do it well. So going back to school to get my masters in English seems to be the road I'm on. I'm still figuring things out. I still not 100% sure where I'm headed. But I do love that an avenue I never considered has been opened for me. Only time and God will tell. I will pray about it. I think that's a great way to begin.
Hair is a big issue and industry for Black women. It is our thing. We will spend all day on a Saturday in the hair shop to get our 'do did. I know that if my hair looks good, then I feel good. It's a great feeling leaving out of the shop with my hair perfect. I fee like the world is my oyster. Yes, a fresh hairdo does all of that for me. Hair is a very big piece of my overall appearance. There is a big movement in the African American culture of women going the natural route. This has intrigued me for some time.
The whole natural movement is very interesting to me. The routes that one can take to get back to their natural state as well. I, however, am not a fan of the Big Chop route. If I do chose to do this, I will def be going the transitioning route. I just don't think I wanna cut all of my hair off to go natural. That is just not gonna happen. I've had my hair cut in a short, Halle Berry-type style about 13 years ago. It was cute but the growing out stage was horrible. I hated it. It wasn't growing fast enough for me. I wore micro braids and a weave for a while. I hate weave. i will never ever have hair sewn in or glued into my head again. It just wasn't for me. The braids were cool and my best option when growing my hair out.
I have read a lot of blogs and forums about the transitioning to natural hair. There is a lot of great information on the web. I absolutely love MopTopMaven and CurlyNikki. These sites are encouraging and very friendly. They are full of natural hair care help and advice. I will say that some of these naturalistas are hardcore. They are usually referred to as the Nazis (not politically correct but still). They believe that in order for one to be completely natural, one should not even straighten their hair or use certain products. I think that's nuts. If I were to go the natural route, I would def be utilizing the Chi iron. I like to wear my hair wrapped. I do not like the negativity that I get from some of these women on the forums. I read those forums to gather more info. This has been a long discovery journey for me. And, I'm still not done yet.
I do like the plethora of natural styles I've seen on African-American women. Locs are gorgeous. Especially when they are neat and tidy and long. I love the look. It's just not the look I would go for. There are also the afros. Big or small, everyone is different. I personally like the braid-outs and twist-outs that I see. They are beautiful and soft. I like soft hair. Because i like to play in my hair. Love for a man to run his fingers through my hair as well. That is one of the best feelings in the world. I always wonder about the naturalistas that I see and their hair story. I'm very curious about that.
My fear in letting go of the chemicals is that I have no idea what my "natural hair state" is. I also do not want to do the Big Chop either. I love the length, thickness and feel of my hair now. Going natural is not like me putting in a rinse. I can not just wash it away. What if I don't like it? What if I can't deal with it? These are the big, huge questions that haunt me about this decision. Granted, I know some will say things like "I am not my hair," but in some actuality, I am sort of my hair. It's a part of me. That may be vain but it's my truth. I am still on the fence about this decision. Are any of you ladies naturalistas? If so, tell me your story. If not, what is your take on this issue? Talk to me!
ETA: My girl Kimberlie has another interesting take in natural hair. Please check it out as well.
Tanika Ray, an Extra correspondent, is my hair inspiration. I love her hair. It's always gorgeous, no matter how she styles it.
